Hiding my crossdressing from my wife

This is about me. I am 53 years old and have been cross dressing since I was about 10 when I tried on my grandmother’s nylons. That was all it took. From there my desire went away until a school play. I had to wear colored nylons, and I was scared to wear them in front of the whole school. I eventually did it, and it felt amazing. I didn’t want to take them off!

Years went by, and I decided to dress up again with my grandmother’s nylons, a dress, bra and heels. I was lucky that I fit in them. I was playing pool in the basement when my grandfather came to check up on me. I was busted. He didn’t say much and told me I had better put her things back the way they were.

Years later I got married, and my desire came back full throttle. When noone was home it was my chance to dress up fully and enjoy my fem side for hours – and I did! I took pictures of myself. Some time later my daughter found them and showed her mother. Not much was said, but I was busted again.

More years go by, my wife knows about my fem side and tells me that I can dress up when the kids are gone. Even though she said she won’t see me dressed up, she sneaks into the basement to see what I look like. I was wearing her dress and nylons and she told me to stop wearing her clothing, which I did.

Over the last few years I have been buying online and in stores, and now have more clothing, jewelry and perfume than she does. My wife gets mad at me when I try to let her see me dolled up. She lets me dress but doesn’t want to see me, and I don’t understand that part.

I love dressing up, and think I should have been born a woman, feeling pretty and looking pretty. I wear my female clothes under my male clothes now. I have a thing build, with a 28 inch waist, with relatively hairless legs. I think if I were to have a total make over I would look like and pass as a woman. I know I’d enjoy being myself and getting my make up and hair done.

If I could come out more fully I’d enjoy practicing and improving my make up, and one day hope to show my wife how pretty I look as a woman. I don’t seem to be able to get enough of crossdressing. I have since joined a crossdressing group and gone out in public. I’ve shared my story with other girls like myself and had a blast. I’ve been welcomed with open arms!

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Lucinda Hawkns

55 years old, love to dress up and be feminine. By my own clothing and make up. Wife knows of my desire but won’t help me with make up nor see me as a female. Loving every min of my fem side dressed up.

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  1. Rebecca 3 years ago

    I am 54, I’ve been cross dressing since i can remember. I have been going out enfemme for several years now. Several women that I am friends with know about “Rebecca”. oddly enough they say I make a better woman than a man..lol I just feel so free and myself when Rebecca is out!

  2. Lisa BANKS 2 years ago

    I Love the comments from other females.
    Its really wonderful knowing I am Not Alone.

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    Lucinda Hawkns 2 years ago

    thanks so much you all, i do enjoy my fem side when kids are not home and at work or in bed. wife lets me know when i can do what i like to do so i do what i like to do and i was 1/2 way there. i go to bed wearing a night gown and lacy panties, i even put on perfume at night to make me feel and smell pretty as i go to sleep.i wear lacy panties most of the time now and a pad, makes me feel like a woman when wearing a pad. but it does make me sweat also. i did wear a lacy panties and lacy bra and nylons and a dress with my male cloths over them and went out to county and did work and i tell you it was making me dehydrated from sweating so much. going to the bath room was a trick also, had to pull dress up and nylons and panties down to sit. sorry about that part but its true. but i felt like a female wearing it all under my male cloths, just wish i could of taken my male cloths off and just wear my dress and nylons and be ME

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