You are not alone and God wants you to know that.

For years I struggled with gender dysphoria and my relationship with God. I have often read and listened to many people discuss this topic through books and the exchange of ideas. All of them fall short. I have gone through an emotional roller coaster of inward reflection that stopped me from moving forward in life.

From my limited observations, I’ve noticed that people are either defending or attacking crossdressing or Transgender individuals. The attacks are often misleading and misunderstood. Their defense is equally misguided. I am proposing a new avenue in which to break out of the misguided bantering back and forth, albeit, I do love a good disagreement. But lately, the cost has become too high, and Christians are driving a wedge between Christ and those who need him.

I want to take this moment to reach out to those who feel as if they are alone and without hope. Let me reassure you, you are not alone. God is present and is with you. When you feel like you are in the deepest depression, God is there with his hand on your shoulder.

In Matthew 15: 22-33, the disciples began crossing the Sea of Galilee. During their crossing, a storm blew in. As the storm raged and rocked their boat, Jesus was seen walking on water. Peter stepped out of the boat and walked on water for a moment until he doubted both Jesus and himself. Luckily, Jesus was there to pick up Peter. After Jesus picked up Peter, they all got into the boat and the storm stopped. Moral of the story is Jesus will always be there to pick us up, we just need faith.

Do not worry about whether crossdressing is a sin. God is the only judge of sin. Worry about your relationship with God. Stop looking everywhere. Begin by looking in your pain and praise God because God is trying to tell you something.

Over the past few months, God has weighed heavily on my heart and my desire to crossdress. Crossdressing is a gift, not a curse or a sin. I do not know to what end crossdressing is God’s gift, I just know it is. It is beautiful, and I look forward to expressing my feminine side now. Do not drag yourself down with self-doubt. Break the chains of sin by praising God, and his purpose will be revealed in your life.

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Sincerely and with much Love


If you would like to read more of my writings, they can be found on the Medium. Feel free to send me a private message and I’ll share the link with you.


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Bettylou Cox
Active Member
1 year ago

Jaime, What you write is true, and I think most crossdressers are aware, deep down, that dressing is not a sin. The problem is with the church members who believe that all crossdressers are gay, and probably sexual predators – which of course, we are not. But perception often outweighs reality. I, myself am a practicing Pentecostal, and many – but not all – members of my church would have a much different opinion of me if they knew. I can’t fault them, because I once believed much the same as they do. Erroneous beliefs are not at all uncommon;… Read more »

Tiffany Alexis
Active Member
1 year ago

Thank you for writing this. There are many of us who have had this struggle. I used to struggle with it as well. I am unashamedly a Christian, whose faith is strong, and I am unashamedly transgender as well. I do not feel conflicted. I’ve been like this as long as I’ve existed, and in fact I spent years starting at the age of five or six praying to God to turn me into a girl, cause that’s how I felt. I have spent my life devoted to helping others, in many aspects of my life. I trust in God,… Read more »

Peggy Sue Williams
Noble Member
1 year ago

Many Bible-believing Christians struggle to reconcile their cross dressing with the Holy Scriptures. Linda Herzer is a member of the same support group I am in, here in Atlanta. IMHO, she has authored the finest publication I have ever read, for Christians seeking answers about cross dressing and being transgendered. Her book is titled, “The Bible and the Transgendered Experience.” -How Scrlpture Supports Gender Variance- Written by: Linda Tatro Herzer The book is widely available from multiple sources, such as Amazon, Barnes & Noble, directly from the publisher, etc. Fundamentalists, in particular, point to Deuteronomy 22:5 and I Corinthians 6:9,… Read more »

Elizabeth Joan
1 year ago

Peggy Sue I so wish we had churches here like that in NC mountains. This is a topic Ive struggled really bad with.

Michelle Stephens
1 year ago

Jaime — Well written! I am a cross dressing Christian, and I have had some of the same “mental” struggles as you have. Yes God loves us and we need to remember that! In the end it is between me and God and no one else! It was never between me and them anyway! (paraphrased from a statement made by Mother Theresa). So I agree with you that we should keep God in our lives and live in the freedom of “Becoming The Woman Inside”!
God’s blessings to you! Be safe and enjoy life!

Stephie Morgan
1 year ago

Jamie, Thank you for sharing your faith and believes with your sisters. Being a person of faith and growing up in a very religious environment I struggled with my crossdressing for many years. A pastor that came to our parish a few years ago helped me to overcome the guilt feelings and that I was a bad person. He reminded me that the Lord loves us all. He made us and put us here for a reason. Although it is hard for most in society accept crossdressers or other LGBT persons we have to put our faith in God and… Read more »

1 year ago

I am a missionary in a 3rd world country, and just finished my own Sunday Church Service. I have been a missionary in a 3rd world country for over 15 years and have seen some of the most unchristian-like attitudes coming from those who claim to be Christian. However, in the early days of the church there were many transgender Monks, some even were declared Saints in the early Roman Catholic Church. One in particular which comes to mind is Saint Anastasia Patricia. If people could be crossdressers and serve God in the early days of the church to the… Read more »

Patricia Marie Allen
Active Member

I totally agree. I struggled with my cross-dressing (at the time I didn’t realize that I was truly transgendered) when I came back to Christ after 18 years out doing my own thing. I tried to break away from all my cross-dressing, only to find it was occupying more and more of my thought life as I tried to deny it. Of course that led more and more to dressing. I couldn’t purge 99% of my wardrobe was shared with my wife, with only shoes being truly mine. In desperation, I finally got totally dressed as Patricia (the true me)… Read more »

Codille Benton
1 year ago


Well written and proud to be a Christian Crossdresser.


Codille Benton

Jane Martin
1 year ago

Jamie, thank you so much for writing this! This is something I have struggled with since I started CD. As I have just recently found this community, I came across your article and was so happy after reading it! I think God intended for me to find this!

Thanks, Jane

mary copper
1 year ago

I know what my personal relationship is with god and well chat with him on occasion dressed enfemmed or not. I go back to the adage that god loves me no matter what and I press on with my daily life and struggles to be crossdresser

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