You are not alone and God wants you to know that.
For years I struggled with gender dysphoria and my relationship with God. I have often read and listened to many people discuss this topic through books and the exchange of ideas. All of them fall short. I have gone through an emotional roller coaster of inward reflection that stopped me from moving forward in life.
From my limited observations, I’ve noticed that people are either defending or attacking crossdressing or Transgender individuals. The attacks are often misleading and misunderstood. Their defense is equally misguided. I am proposing a new avenue in which to break out of the misguided bantering back and forth, albeit, I do love a good disagreement. But lately, the cost has become too high, and Christians are driving a wedge between Christ and those who need him.
I want to take this moment to reach out to those who feel as if they are alone and without hope. Let me reassure you, you are not alone. God is present and is with you. When you feel like you are in the deepest depression, God is there with his hand on your shoulder.
In Matthew 15: 22-33, the disciples began crossing the Sea of Galilee. During their crossing, a storm blew in. As the storm raged and rocked their boat, Jesus was seen walking on water. Peter stepped out of the boat and walked on water for a moment until he doubted both Jesus and himself. Luckily, Jesus was there to pick up Peter. After Jesus picked up Peter, they all got into the boat and the storm stopped. Moral of the story is Jesus will always be there to pick us up, we just need faith.
Do not worry about whether crossdressing is a sin. God is the only judge of sin. Worry about your relationship with God. Stop looking everywhere. Begin by looking in your pain and praise God because God is trying to tell you something.
Over the past few months, God has weighed heavily on my heart and my desire to crossdress. Crossdressing is a gift, not a curse or a sin. I do not know to what end crossdressing is God’s gift, I just know it is. It is beautiful, and I look forward to expressing my feminine side now. Do not drag yourself down with self-doubt. Break the chains of sin by praising God, and his purpose will be revealed in your life.
Sincerely and with much Love
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