Early Christmas Thank You Greeting!
I was re-reading my recent post, Someday, and realized that I had never really thanked everyone here on the site for all they have done for me in the months since I joined! I keep meaning to do it, but as the song says, “do words unsaid ever really count?” Since none of us are promised tomorrow, I didn’t want to wait or delay telling y’all how much you have meant to me since I joined the site in mid to late August of this year.
I have been on a sort of quest for the last several years to understand myself and my need to express my feminine side as well as how FAR I want/need to go, and had researched and read MANY, many articles and blogs on various CD/TG sites but never found one that made me want to join the site until one day, I saw an ad for a breastform giveaway (like the current one being done for Christmas) and clicked on the link intending only to enter the contest. When I got to the CDH site, however, I was struck by how warm and welcoming it seemed.
It didn’t matter if you were a crossdresser or transgender or somewhere in between. ALL were welcome, and I began reading many of the articles. Enjoying them, I decided, with much trepidation, to join the community and signed up. Shortly after that I received a warm welcoming PM from some lady named Codille!
Kind of an unusual name so I began a PM conversation (this was well before the chat function was available) with her that got to be more and more involved-telling her a little about myself and my thoughts/feelings. She was wonderful, expressing an interest in me as a person and drawing me out in expressing myself. I did a few tentative comments/replies to a few forum topics and quickly realized that I had so much in common with many other members. I had known I wasn’t truly the only one who enjoyed dressing but had not realized how similar a lot of our experiences were. SO I became more and more involved in the forums, posting replies and comments on almost everything I read.
This apparently brought me to the attention of Codille and Vanessa who asked me to become one of the Ambassadors for the site. My first reaction was to say no-feeling myself unworthy of such a title and responsibility. After a bit of friendly encouragement and more thought, I agreed and the rest as they say is history! I overcame my shy nature and posted pictures of myself instead of the avatar I had been using. I made a conscious decision to share my story –warts and all- in the hopes that it might encourage others to do the same with theirs.
And I was absolutely overwhelmed by the response I got from the members of our community! All of a sudden, instead of feeling alone and undesirable, I felt warm and included and had hundreds of new friends who listened and advised me and shared their own stories. I know some people probably think that we do this job for the members and that is CERTAINLY TRUE! But what they may not realize is how much we, the ambassadors, are blessed in interacting with each and every one of you. We laugh with you as you tell of your happy times (and even some of the embarrassing stories that in hindsight are humorous) and we cry with you as you tell us of the heartbreaking stories of your past and present. It is such a blessing to us to be able to help others come to understand themselves better and in so doing also understand ourselves a little better as well.
So while I realize that everyone has their own beliefs, I couldn’t think of a better time of year to thank each and every one of you for allowing me the honor to serve you as a CDH Ambassador.(I wanted to get this out before people starting leaving on vacations for the holidays).
I posted earlier as well my wistfulness about Cynthia not receiving any Christmas presents from anyone but me, but now I realize that this was NOT true. The true gifts are YOU, the members of our CDH community and in my view anyway, the members of MY FAMILY! Thank you for the love and support you’ve given me and each other this year, and I look forward to a wonderful year in 2016 making strides and continuing to grow closer as a family!