The first time I dressed as a girl was for a school play. It was a comic role where some guys were portraying a group of girls. I felt a mixture of excitement and shame because my friends were going to see me portrayed in female clothing. Soon after, whenever I would see my mother’s lingerie hanging out to dry, I had the urge to touch and feel it. The urge changed to wanting to try them on. Once, when I was 14, I found some lingerie in the bathroom while showering. My curiosity got the better of me and I tried them on. Years later I don’t recall how they had felt against my skin, but I remember the intense feeling of excitement when I put them on and stole a look in the mirror. The feeling of disgust got the better of me and I pulled them off as quickly as possible. During those days, I tried on panties a couple of times for a few seconds while showering.
This phase wore off as I got busy with studies, but I always had a lustful look at whatever lingerie I saw around me, whether at home, in stores, in movies, and even on the women in commercials. While I dated, I had an immense fascination with the girl’s lingerie, but I never felt like trying them on myself. At the same time, I was fascinated with the act of waxing and wanted to try it. This wasn’t possible as I still lived with my parents. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to do it because it felt like a weird thing to do and something I should be ashamed of doing. In spite of it, my ultimate fantasy remains going out fully dressed as a girl!
A few months ago I moved to a different country and I now live alone. This has allowed me to experiment in a way I couldn’t before. My old girlfriend was horrified at the idea of me shaving my armpits (I had spoken with her about this and broached the topic as a health reason because it reduces the stink of sweat). So the first feminine thing I did after starting to live alone was to shave my armpits. I’m not sure that this only a female thing as I many of my guy friends do this. The feeling is amazing! I love how smooth my armpits feel and it does make me feel sexy. Soon, I began to shave my torso; a shaved torso feels much sexier than only having hairless armpits!
I can’t wait to go further and try more feminine things like shaving or waxing my legs. I also want to move on to feminine clothing. Speaking of clothes, I plan to buy a cute lingerie set for myself. I welcome anyone’s suggestions? I’d be interested in advice on what other articles of clothing I could try, which won’t show under my regular clothes (for now).