Welcome Luna and don’t worry about it. If anybody ever tells you that they have never had those nagging doubts about being a ‘weirdo’, a ‘freak’ or an ‘abomination’, they are lying. I have those doubts on far too many days and I’m willing to bet most of the people on here would agree. It is mostly just about finding a place where those thoughts don’t matter and once again, I am willing to be most of those people see this as that kind of a place. The place where they can be themselves and do what they want. So welcome to this happy little corner of the internet, hope you enjoy your stay.