I think I do have the same feelings but I guess they will never materialize.
Like Bettylou I have to keep Patty in the closet most times as it’s one of my wife’s boundaries.
She is ok with me being Patty out of town.
My goal for now would be to occasionally get to be Patty all day say maybe a 24 hour period.
That’s an awesome some goul you have ,I sure hope it happens for you.