I’ve never been that into animal prints myself, but lately I’m starting to come around to thinking there is a right way to do them 🙂
I’m still not sure dysphoria is what I experience. For the most part, I just really want to be female sometimes, I’ve never really felt like I actually am. To be honest, it still feels weird for me to think of myself as female. Is that because I don’t let myself, or because it’s what I genuinely feel? Am I Ashley or is she just a part of me? That’s something else I’m still not sure of. I filled up my profile with faceapp photos to see if that might do anything for me. I think it has, but sticking with the theme, I don’t know what yet. I think I can say it was affirming in some way, because it confirmed what I’d suspected for a long time now: that I would like myself as female.
I really like your car analogy! mine might be a little different… Ashley is still a sports car. But my male self is more like a truck: he does everything I want him to. I don’t want to get rid of him because I like him for what he can do and sometimes I’m perfectly happy just going out and doing truck stuff. Yet sometimes I feel stuck with him because I know he just can’t do everything I want to do. Sometimes I want to leave him at home and go out and do sports car stuff.
Nobody thinks a person who has both a truck and a sports car is so weird….