First, sometimes it seems like it’s so easy for all of us to say, ‘Hey, girl, stop with the guilt feelings’. Well, it ain’t that easy, we are what we are, and sometimes that includes feeling bad about ourselves, like we’re doing something wrong (or worse). Well, to tell the truth, I do have guilty feelings. See, I love chocolate…a lot. I’ve found a manufacturer who makes the most delicious chocolate ice cream I can imagine. Chocolate, chocolate fudge, and chocolate chips all in one. I could eat a whole carton in one sitting…and still want more. I’m sure it’s not good for me in that quantity, but still…. That, my dear, is a true guilty feeling when I indulge.
Now as far as wanting to be female and dress appropriately, well, I’ve had that desire since I was about 4, and it’s never gone away,(much as I tried early on to push it away!!!) through purges, military, marriages, children, grandchildren, job changes, moves. It is what it is, and thank goodness, I’ve now accepted it. I dress when I can, I let my imagination run when I can, I’m through purging. It’s not that I ever felt really guilty about doing it, it was that I felt I’d never be able to be open to anyone about it. Thank goodness for the internet and sites like this where I can, where we can, where there is support and understanding and acceptance.
And especially, girls here in all stages of trying to live at least a part of their lives as they want and who are sharing their success stories, some large, some small, but all steps in the right direction, and giving others a chance to see what they might also be able to do. Guilt? Bah! Knowing who and what you – and we – are and where we want to go, that’s what we should all be focusing on.