I began dressing fully femme at 18 and began going out dressed as often as I could and as often as my nerve would allow me to. I was hoping I wouldn’t get recognized, but the possibility of that happening made it so exciting and such a thrill and rush. I loved those feelings.
But there was a strange divide. As much as I loved going out dressed and the looks, cat calls, professions of love and compliments, I wanted that to be like a secret life that brought me all kinds of thrills. I put that life away after college for over 20 years. When I began dressing again, those feelings and memories of those adventures began coming back. I was ashamed of some of the things I did for a thrill and was pretty much keeping them a secret. Then I began meeting other crossdressers and began corresponding here on CDH. I found many others were like me. Others not so much, but there seemed to be a lot of opening up, confessing and telling tales of adventures. I began to throw out tales and stories of some of my adventures and things I did. I also enjoyed hearing and sharing with others like me.
Being Patty is still somewhat of a secret life with me, although I do love the excitement thrill and rush of going out and getting together with other CD’s. I actually love being a CD. I’ve embraced it and I’m getting and being more open about it. It’s becoming more comfortable and natural for me the more I open up.