For me it started as #2…when I was young
later in life, it sometimes was #3
now it’s mostly back to #2
I don’t see myself ever transitioning…so, I consider myself some sort of gender fluid, still a man in most of my life but very much a girl when I choose to be, not just a guy who likes to wear girl clothes but a total girl. I have allowed myself to be a bit more feminine when I am in ‘man-mode’ and this has improved my overall mental health.
I used to be insecure about the fact that I was a man who only weighs 120lbs, no chest hair and have girly bones but I don’t let that happen anymore. When I start to feel that way, I remember one of the many bullies who used to make me feel weak and bad and just say out loud “fuck that guy”