I’m so sorry that life has crashed down on you. I have been through depression as well, in fact I’m getting back on anti-depressants. These are used to get us through the bad times, and allow us to work on what we need to with a clearer head. I hope you can find the medication that worked for you.
I’m glad you reached out to us, instead of isolating yourself. Please don’t hesitate to message us. We are here for you.