I’m not proud of my live. It start seeing girl clothes and i became the crossdresser who many people surching for. Many of the girls gets offended but, believe me, and i really think this is true, if we all find ourselfs strying female clothes, because something call us, something pulls “the other girls” ( a few or many, i don’t now) to try, (i was, i am) the stuff that you don’t want to be associated. Its a problem if a girl get the mind trapped there. If that happens, it’s just because their minds are 100% in the sex part. The clothes, felling pretty, is not there. Not love, just sex. Many mens surch this. Its not a clean path. It feels an explosion of pleasure this way, but after a wild, when i comeback to real life, i feel some kind of emptyness. Its not easy to switch my mind. If many girls expect the end of the day to put a shoe, a skirt or makeup, whith a smile in their hearts, many of us loose that train somewhere, and its not easy to get back on the track. Not long time ago,i feel just perfect to dressed up and seeing girls in their outfits. But i’ve seen movies….. and i have to try.
I do not now if i can express my thougts and fellings in a way that you understand me.
Every girl, every person, wants to be happy. I belive some girls just want to put some kinky clothes and have sex. Hetero or homo, don’t metter at all. And they rich their gold with that. Put the videos on the internet its a kind of exciting. I put one once and i take him off in the next minute. Thrill.
I do not want, and i can not do that, justify the actions of all girls but the other girls find their way to express their feminine side in a way that many girls can not find their mirror in those girls. Some have no chance to choose. The doors closed in the “normal life”. Porn and prostitution open that door.
If i do not feel strong enougth, to put a outfit and go out, what do you think of many of this girls of the underworld ( or not that deep) to get free and go in the Wright way. Others do no wanted.
I think in the end of all, i just trying to convince myself theres no wrong paths. I’m on nogirls land. I do like to feel just feminine when i dresse up and just walk in my room feeling good and well dressed. In the same coin i have thougts, feelings that is no compatible with the way of living of a lady.
I do not know what to write more,just trying not judge in the some way that you not want to be judge. Women and gays still have problems in the day by day to get accepted. Many of the girls stands up and fight.Many others do not pick that fight. The fear wins.
Trully from the heart.
I do not think that is a just