I am a man. In terms of biological sex that can’t be disputed. I was AMAB – a male at birth because I had the genitalia applicable to being male. I have XY chromosomal makeup. Again this signifies me as a man. But this is on the outside. The inside is altogether a different kettle of fish. Or should I say, developing neural pathways.
In reality I can be a man – obviously – I have had decades of practice! But I can also now be a woman, because I have a feminised brain. It has been a very long and slow transformation, but over the years my feminised brain has been building new female-typical neural pathways simply by repetitively doing things that women do. Like dressing in women’s clothes. Browsing women’s clothes and participating in CDH ( a dangerous thing to do if you are convinced you are a man.) The “pink fog” is the environment that allows feminisation to proceed. So as a result, little by little, I have become progressively less male and more female.
I can still easily switch between roles, but these days my true self is aware of that happening. It’s fascinating. I can observe myself behaving as a man whilst my mind is smiling wryly, knowing it is all an act. My body is like a bike and the rider is my mind. The bike has a crossbar and is a physical thing that carries my mind, which is my female personality. Which is just me. And I know how to ride the bike!
Stephanie P xxx