With rare exception, we have all been where you are today…and we all got through it.
My own Dressing halted when I left high school, and didn’t return until after 50 years of marriage. At first, it was just something I wanted to try; then it became something I needed to do; and now, it’s who I really am. I am blessed with a wife who at first was willing to tolerate this new part of me (within limits), and has grown to fully accept Bettylou as a girlfriend. Please find a way to share your secret with your wife; you may or may not be as fortunate as I was, but you will be able grow as Darcy and relieve the pent-up stress.