My first gurl purchases were ladies’ tees, and I was nervous about even those. My first bra and panty purchase was a white-knuckle event, even with self-checkout. That was about 4 years ago; now, I browse through the women’s clothes sections without a second thought, whether Dressed or in drab. Self-acceptance made the difference. It will take some time, but you will get to the same place, someday.