Thanks Jules for a well written post.
I identify with what you said so strongly I could have written it myself… if I could just write that well. Since a very young age I always wanted to BE that girl but could never convey that desire to anyone. Girls who caught me staring always thought I was just another lustful horny male with only one thought in mind, but if they only knew my real thoughts… sigh. Even today I still look at women the same way but hopefully I’m more discrete.