Reply To: I don’t know what’s next for Carmen and at some crossroad

[CelesteCD]

Carmen, what you have shared here is something that I can completely relate to on many levels.  From what I can tell your dressing started out with one objective – or dare I say curiosity – but once that was achieved you found yourself wanting more. Maybe it was lipstick first, then you raised the game with shorter shorts, then..rinse and repeat many times over.  Yes I can relate to that in so many ways – going well beyond what I ever thought I would.  Now, you have successfully improved your skills at makeup and dressing to clearly turn heads (really great profile pics).  And with it comes a feeling of being desired and puts you in the position of power.  While I have not been as bold as you with being in public, I do feel more powerful each time I dress with a touch of bawdiness where I want to just see what the reaction could be.  It’s like, I know what the other person wants and I will decide if/when/how that happens.  Your hypothetical of what you would say/do to a guy would turn him to putty and it sounds like you would enjoy that quite a bit as well.  Nothing wrong with that at all.  It’s really intoxicating as someone else here posted one time.  One thing I have learned in my time on this journey is that once there is the idea of trying something in my head, it is hard to shake it until I have actually tried it.  After all how do you know what you like and dislike, much less what it means for you until you have gone down that road. Easy for me to say and I really am rambling at this point, but perhaps you understand where I’m coming from.  BTW, great photos you have shared with everyone!