I can’t vote as you can only choose one.
At the moment I feel:-
My crossdressing, whilst fine most of the time, is recently causing major problems.
So whilst I enjoy being dressed, I feel terrible guilt and sadness. If this were asked a few weeks ago, it would be satisfaction.
I need to dress, but if I could take a magic pill to make these desires go away, I’d take it in an instant. It\s causing too much angst and sadness at the moment. Things will improve, but it will take a little time.