Ii think that you have found your identity and that this gives you confidence. Until I found mine, I used to drink too much. This stopped as soon as I adopted a female persona. This gave me the courage to move forward and be what I am.
Do have the confidence to follow the path that you feel has been allocated to you. It may be hard, but then thete are many things in life which are challenging. Do however, think through the possible consequences of any action. Decisions are not easy, but I think we have to grit outeeth and get on with kt as life is short.
Lay / Moira.