Hi J, i am very new here too, and i am a partner of a cross dresser. It is my understanding that people dress for any number of reasons. The reason people are here isnt about the ‘why’, its the support, guidance, and shared understanding that brings everyone together in this safe space. Please feel welcomed.
Sorry for your loss – remember there is no right or wrong way to grieve. Whatever helps bring you comfort during such a difficult time. take care of yourself and its good youve reached out.