I guess I don’t think there is anything wrong with you if you follow your heart. I suppressed my cross dressing desires for 36 long years when I was a husband, father, and full time employee in a male dominated industry. Now I’m retired, my child is grown up and gone, and my wife is leaving me. There is nothing left to keep my from expressing my feminine side. I know I will never pass as a woman, but I sure would like to try. You should express yourself in anyway you desire. After all life is short and if you can’t please anyone else, you should please yourself.