Hello Crystalline and welcome. Wonderful introduction. There are so many questions and so much to learn in life still, no matter what we seek. You are fortunate to have an SO that supports your style and accepting you as you. You seem to be at a crossroads and wondering which path to take. My suggestion is go with happiness. Happiness will make other things in your life flourish. Is happiness bringing another person in your relationship or sharing more with the one you are with? You seem happy now, but have more than just thoughts going on it appears. There are surely going to be more questions. I wish you luck and good guidance in your journey.