Thank you for your post.
Like many I started in my youth wearing my mother’s things, as I got older dressing was something I did on very rare occasions. When I did I enjoyed it but there was a lot of guilt and shame associated with it. It was a bit over 2 years ago that my dressing came up in a conversation with my wife, which is another story. As a result I started dressing more frequently privately as she doesn’t want to see me dressed, I also keep it in the house per our agreement. At her suggestion I started therapy and as a result I have come to realize and accept that Suzanne is part of me no matter how I am dressed. It is very liberating to be able to do so.