I’m having theses very same thoughts recently myself. I’m going back and forth about it. It is quite the conundrum as you have said.
I think in my case I’ll have to sooner than later. The feelings I’m having are too strong to hide from. I know I will get caught sooner or later anyway. That seems like it would be much worse! I also feel creepy hiding my stash away like a troll or something.
I don’t have children to consider though, that certainly makes the decision a lot tougher!
I wish you the best whatever you decide!