I’m married and respect my wife, but as I have accepted myself through years of productive therapy I realize sexuality and gender are on a spectrum. If its a 1-5 scale for both. I’m more feminine and more attracted to men than I ever realized. Likely a 4 for both.
When I was younger and repressed all of this and acted macho. Then it was oh Im only curious about men when dressed. Now I think my truth is I would definitely date a man, be intimate and even fall for a guy, but prior to realizing this I made commitments to my wife and kids that are too important to me.