Hi Sable, this is such a terrible dilemma for most of us yet unique to each of us depending on our personal circumstances, so I wouldn’t dare to tell you what to do. Having read your later reply about coming out to some friends (good and bad results) I can see your concerns. We all have them. Reading between the lines it appears you want to be out (me too, if I’m honest) but it is scary. I don’t know why something as wonderful and harmless as crossdressing should be this problematic but hey, maybe that’s why it’s so much fun.
I hope, whatever happens, that it works out well for you.
Much love, Amy x