Like Brielle I have decided to move down the path of HRT. I am in a position that I can make that decision as I do not have a S.O. I made the decision to stay single when I knew that my dressing would never go away and was progressing to full time. I have a long standing female friend who cannot stand to see me. She was told many years ago and has seen me dressed but has struggled. Recently after a life changing event, she has decided that she does not want to see me dressed at all. I have to accept that, it does hurt but I have to respect her feelings and can change back to see her. I suspect if we were married it would be a divorce. In that I would think very carefully of going ahead in a marriage without discussing with your partner and knowing where you want to go with this.
I had discussions with my G.P. and had blood tests. I suppose each of us is different and the medical opinions and HRT differ in different countries. I am on Estradiol patches and have to be placed on clean hair free skin. I did have an issue sticking them at first but have got that issue resolved. I did ask the doctor and she gave me some advice and said if it wasn’t successful I could have a cream instead. That would not be visible.
I am three months in and have nothing to report. It is easy to believe or feel there are changes but this is a long term treatment and changes may not come for quite a while and you have to be realistic as to what will change. I did a lot of research online and discussions so have a realistic expectation.
I sat and evaluated the stage I am at and really looked at my persona and feelings. I have taken my appearance as far as I can, listened carefully to what friends and family say to me. One key thing is that I look happier nowadays and my appearance is more than acceptable. Body wise I can create a good bust and hip and am of small build so have a size advantage already. My demeanor has always been empathetic, I like the company of women and, having emotions, I do cry!
The reason why I decided to take HRT is that it could give me a more feminine shape and I have no illusion that it may just be very subtle. It may also increase my bust a bit but apart from that it won’t change my voice, grow long luxurious hair and transform me into a full woman. I am also aware of the medical implications as I am of Brielles age so will ensure I am in touch with my Doctor.
In some respects it may seem strange that I am undertaking this path as I am quite happily living as a woman without anything being done. I just see it as a less impact treatment than surgery. I can always stop if there are any issues that start.
It is a personal thing that needs a lot of thought, research, discussion and, more importantly, medical advice and the correct medication.