When I dress I want to stay dressed and continue exploring the person i probably should have been. Except that Im now at a stage in my life where i know it will never happen. Ive made too many commitments , allowed too many peoole to have way to many expectations of me and made decisions that continue to lead me down the path into which my outwardly visible gender more or less dictates. I greatly value the moments I can slip into my life where i can actually breathe deeply and find that inner peace yet I always am aware those moments are fleeting and more often than not, becoming less. And Ive resigned myself to continue trying to overcome the inherent sadness that can so easily envelop me when i have to return to this fascade that only appears to others as their image of me. Yes, its a continual steuggle that i wont ever know if I’m winning…or losing.
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