Oh my God, I didn’t expect so many kind responses. I can’t reply to each of you individually without repeating myself 6 times over but thank you so much to Natalie, J.J., Brenda, Angela, Bianca, and Dawn for your replies. I think Angela understands one aspect of this for me, being alone and left to deal with your thoughts, which is why I posted my sob story. And many more of you have come through for me than I ever expected. Taking what several of you have said and with another 24 hours behind me, I almost feel silly for bawling about something so inconsequential. My friend who recently learned he has diabetes came to mind. That means life changes for him as well — but he didn’t moan about it when he told me, just accepted that his diet will be changing. I’ve been extraordinarily healthy until just the last year so I’m not used to all the fuss and making appointments and being scanned and probed and told what to do and where to go and that what feels very abnormal is really normal. But, as several of you reminded me, lots of others have dealt with all of this. I can too. Well, I mentioned that I’ve always been an “only” and we have a reputation for being “spoiled.” I didn’t think I was but . . . I may have been wrong. We, (girlfriend and I) thank all of you.
Dawn, thank you for reading and replying. I’ve long thought that, if I woke up one morning and discovered I had become a female, I’d be fine with it. (At least I’d have many things to wear.) Or, if changing over were easily reversible, I might like to enjoy the occasional day as a woman. But I don’t see being female as the route to a trouble free life either, so, especially at my age (76), I think I’ll just stay in the body I have.