that’s up to you to decide, Val’sheril.
this is my take on that: you either are or are not. there’s no “kinda”.
what you pursue on a medical level depends on what you need, just like any other medical procedure.
as you’re probably aware, there are many different “flavors” of transgender — it doesn’t mean you have to transition or present any certain way.
it’s all up to you, dear.
Val’sheril, i recently wrote an article about this sort of thing, *here is the link* if you’d like to read it.
i can tell that you & i have a few things in common. feel free to pm me if you’d like to talk some more 🙂