Learning any new skill takes a lot of research, training, time, and patience; it’s what makes it both fun and frustrating, sometimes we seem to be progressing and then we’re going in circles of mistakes and failures until things begin to click. Nothing worthwhile is ever easy, until you get good at it. Some professional help and a little practice every day should, over time, see you right.
And I’ve just realised I’m having a conversation with myself as well; I really should take my own advice. Oh, this duality! x