Greetings from a fellow giraffe 😉
For me it’s no longer having a fear of going out the few times I do, but the height. I can put myself together to “pass”. At 6’ 3” and 205 though I get noticed quick, especially in heels. I’d go anywhere if I could be 6” less in height and a couple dozen or less lbs.
Outside, I stay conservative, but at home push the limits in similar way as you describe. In the dreams I’d be pushing even a bit more too if not so tall, but not trashy. The only positive is I lucked out on the shoe size. I can comfortably wear women’s 10s, so I have 14 pairs of shoes (compared to 5 men’s). Somewhere between 12 or 14 in outfits, but yeah would rather also be 5’ 9”, 38D, size 10, no change for shoes… ahhhh let the pink fog roll in 😉