Like others have said, my nervousness is quickly eclipsed by other things. Excitement, sure, but a whole host of other things, too. I feel strong and confident (most of the time) and I find that I really lean into that; head high, chest out. This is still pretty new for me, I only started going out in public last October but I’ve gone out at least weekly since then, both solo and with my wife. What really squelches the nerves for me, though, is this expansive sense of… wholeness, for lack of a better word. Nikki’s been bottled up inside my whole life, and being able to fully express her is hugely liberating. I still wear a mask in public, as much as because my wife is immunocompromised as because I am self-conscious about my makeup game. Looking forward to getting over that!
xo, Nikki
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