I get these femme desires to be wearing pantyhose, heels and a short dress. It’s like a hunger I want or need to satisfy. I slip into some pantyhose, I’m feeling rushes of excitement. I slip on some heels. I’m experiencing feelings of pleasure. I put on my bra. Euphoria and pleasure has washed over me. I put my breastforms in my bra. The pleasure and euphoria get stronger. I slip on a dress. I’m in like an out of body euphoric pleasure trip. I put on my wig looking in a mirror. These intense waves of pleasure and euphoria begin to swirl within me. I feel totally different then I did a few minutes ago.
I step back and view my whole self in the mirror. I go through some kind of spiritual and emotional orgasm for lack of a better description. These feeling seem to say with me the entire time I’m dressed. They fade, come back and explode. That’s where I think my nerve and fear lies. When I begin to feel that rush and excitement, I get bolder and less timid. When that euphoria and pleasure starts to build, I’m at my boldest. I’m going to try on and buy those shoes. I’m going to walk through that large group of people. I’m going up those escalators. I’m going to buy those pantyhose, bras and panties. The pleasure and euphoria builds. It gets more and more intense.
I tried on and bought those shoes with people watching me. I walked through that large group of people. Everyone saw me. I’m wearing pantyhose, heels and a short dress. I seem to be the only girl dressed like that. I want to show off my legs in pantyhose. I want to give them a close look. Hopefully close enough where they could see the mesh. I get on an escalator and go to the top. When I get off, I saw people behind me. I know they saw my legs in pantyhose up close. I bought that pantyhose, bras and panties, standing in line with other people. Did they notice me? Did they see what I was buying?
This is where those euphoric pleasures build up. When I did what I wanted to do is when I feel that orgasmic rush and thrill. It’s very nutty, even crazy. Maybe it’s not even a way to feel more womanly, but it seems to be my way. I know of no other way to feel like that.