Awaiting the Day

[skippy1965 Cynthia]

Awaiting the Day

As life begins to coalesce into a clearer scene,
The future beckons me to ponder what it all will mean.
My path is still not set in stone but I can ne’er return
To where I was before my inner feelings I did learn.

Like chicks emerging from their shells, the female side of me
Has left the darkling shadows where the world had told her she
Should spend her life since valueless her life was in their eyes-
But after years concurring she began to realize

That there was nothing wrong with her. It was the world’s mistake.
For surely there is worth in every life that God did make.
The measure of the person is not just how they appear-
For each of us that changes with the passing of each year.

And though for some those changes might be greater than for others
And some discover sisters which before appeared as brothers,
The true reward is integrating body, mind and soul-
To mend the broken spirit into one enduring whole.

The risks involved enormous as reactions are unknown
As previously hidden parts of us to others now are shown.
Not everyone can handle change, some fear so much that they
End up rejecting those they love and chasing them away.

And if that happens to me, it would crush me deep inside-
But Cyn is such a part of me-I can no longer hide
The essence of my soul, even if it means that I lose
The love of friends or family but I hope that they choose

To look beyond the way I look and not abandon me.
For I have much to offer whether I am “he” or “she”.
My love has no conditions-and I know that I have worth
Despite the gender issues I have lived with since my birth.

So hope it springs eternal that my worries are for naught
That people will discover that it’s not how they had thought.
I’m still the person that they knew and that I e’er will be
For it’s what’s deep inside that makes the person that is me.

And so I sit anticipating how my fate will go
Reactions of each person there is just no way to know.
But I accept myself regardless of what others say
And know I’m moving forward from the nighttime into day.

I’ll face my future boldly and become who I must be-
What form that takes, I don’t know yet but one day I will see.
And if my story helps just one more person to succeed
My life will have meant something and that’s all I truly need.

Thanks to all of you for the love and support you have given me this past year as I try to figure out just who I truly am. If it is not too much to ask I hope you will continue that support as I prepare to tell my kids about myself and also as Cyn prepares to get out to see the world and let the world see her!
Cyn

[Cookie JessicaLynn (Irish)]

Very lovely.

 

[Anonymous]

2016_poets corner: skippy1965(Cynthia) original post: 

Awaiting the Day

As life begins to coalesce into a clearer scene,

The future beckons me to ponder what it all will mean.

My path is still not set in stone but I can ne’er return

To where I was before my inner feelings I did learn.

Like chicks emerging from their shells, the female side of me

Has left the darkling shadows where the world had told her she

Should spend her life since valueless her life was in their eyes-

But after years concurring she began to realize

That there was nothing wrong with her. It was the world’s mistake.

For surely there is worth in every life that God did make.

The measure of the person is not just how they appear-

For each of us that changes with the passing of each year.

And though for some those changes might be greater than for others

And some discover sisters which before appeared as brothers,

The true reward is integrating body, mind and soul-

To mend the broken spirit into one enduring whole.

The risks involved enormous as reactions are unknown

As previously hidden parts of us to others now are shown.

Not everyone can handle change, some fear so much that they

End up rejecting those they love and chasing them away.

And if that happens to me, it would crush me deep inside-

But Cyn is such a part of me-I can no longer hide

The essence of my soul, even if it means that I lose

The love of friends or family but I hope that they choose

To look beyond the way I look and not abandon me.

For I have much to offer whether I am “he” or “she”.

My love has no conditions-and I know that I have worth

Despite the gender issues I have lived with since my birth.

So hope it springs eternal that my worries are for naught

That people will discover that it’s not how they had thought.

I’m still the person that they knew and that I e’er will be

For it’s what’s deep inside that makes the person that is me.

And so I sit anticipating how my fate will go

Reactions of each person there is just no way to know.

But I accept myself regardless of what others say

And know I’m moving forward from the nighttime into day.

I’ll face my future boldly and become who I must be-

What form that takes, I don’t know yet but one day I will see.

And if my story helps just one more person to succeed

My life will have meant something and that’s all I truly need.

Thanks to all of you for the love and support you have given me this past year as I try to figure out just who I truly am. If it is not too much to ask I hope you will continue that support as I prepare to tell my kids about myself and also as Cyn prepares to get out to see the world and let the world see her!

Cyn

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