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Emerging From the Chrysalis
The long-anticipated day had finally arrived;
Would fear cause me to cringe and hide or would Cyn find she thrived?
I’d longed to let the world see her but always had held back-
Afraid that she’d be ridiculed, or worse, might be attacked.
Like many had before me, I had let the world define
Who I “should” be- despite the feelings deep within my mind.
I knew that there was more to me than what I showed the world,
But did I dare reveal the thoughts that in my soul had swirled?
For decades now the answer was a firm and fearful “No”
Until a friend broke through the walls I’d built and let me know
That I need not be fearful to let others know the truth
And let them see the girl I’d buried ever since my youth.
And so I let the curtain part the slightest little bit.
I ventured from the bedroom where before I’d always sit.
And though the progress I was making seemed so very slow,
Once I relaxed, the fears decreased and Cyn began to show.
Like peeling back an onion, as each layer I’d unwind
I liked the person who’d been hidden deep within my mind.
She seemed to represent the person I was meant to be
And slowly I allowed the world this special girl to see.
The Florida trip to SCC had long ago been planned,
And finally the time to go was suddenly at hand.
The nervousness returned as I began the long, long drive-
But at the same time, never had I felt quite so alive.
I’ve posted lots of details of that most amazing week.
At this stage in my journey, that has been the highest peak.
And though I’m back at home, I know I’ll never be the same
For Cyn has tasted freedom and her passion set aflame.
She may decide that getting out as Cyn more is enough;
Or is transitioning a need? Decisions can be tough.
But no matter which path she takes, Cyn’s not going away-
The time to hide is over-and THIS girl is here to stay!
I encourage each of you to go to one of the conferences and let yourself explore your feelings and be true to your inner soul. I think you will find it incredibly liberating, and possibly even life changing. (And of course amazingly fun too!)
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