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Weeks ago I rushed into a thrift store for shoes, picked a pair that I like with block heels.(sensible start, right). I slip one foot into a shoe to see if the size was right. Close enough- I have to get going before some lady scolds me.
Mustard a brave face in the check out line. The lady clerk was sooooo nice. “Do you want to sign up for our discount program?” No odd looks, no comments. I rush to car, heart racing. I can’t wait to get home to try these one. I slip on some cable knit tights and then the shoes. OMG- they are 5 inch heels! I can’t stand up much less walk and strut. At least they are good for modeling! I do take some pictures and do my first post on CDH.
So over the last few weeks I look at Walmart and Thrift stores for shoes that I can walk in. I just walk around looking dorky and rush out. Then last Saturday, I am in a thrift store and find a shoe that I actually try on. It fits on the right foot. OK- I am going to walk right up to cashier and go home with these! Except…. I can’t find the left shoe in a box, on a different shelf, no where to be found.
It must be that I am not meant to get nice things for Vivian. I try again at the thrift store. Low heels, check. Fits right foot, check. (Is anyone watching? I can look- keep your head down) OK, the left foot is a bit tight but I have to make do. I can’t stay here like I belong. So, I take them to cashier and it’s the same nice lady. I make it out alive.
Try them on at home. First few minutes are so fulfilling but then the I realize they aren’t the right size. Damn, another failure. The store has return policy for exchanges but can I do it again?
Today was the day! Walked in tried on 3 pairs and found one that works! Now I have to do the exchange in front of God and everyone. But because the shoe Gods are smiling on me, the cashier is my favorite lady. I explain I need to exchange. She says the new ones are more expense but not by much so let’s call if even. As I walk to the car I can feel a bit of giddiness. Maybe even a bit of excitement, if you know what I mean.
I have some stops to make on the way home but I can’t wait to walk in my new shoes. I stop in a parking lot and pretend I need to move something from the back seat to the hatch. I get out walk about the car in my new heels. Maybe someone driving by with see me- I DON’T CARE. The shoes look good and I feel great. Drive about in my new shoes to the next stop but I have to do that again. If it worked once, let’s do it again. So the same package goes from hatch to the back seat with me walking confidently.
It is hard to describe the feeling but everyone here knows it! I get lucky and my disabled wife has a 2 hour appointment so I can rush home while she is at the doctor to bring out Vivian. First thing is slip on the new pumps and unload the car. Strut around just little in the kitchen. Now it’s time to put on thigh highs with a black garter on each leg. I slip on an oversized blouse of my wife’s. Then I walk about as the best Vivian yet. (I have sooooo far to go to be anything close to what I envision Vivi to be)
I do take a few pictures. I hope to post one or more later.
What a day! It sure caused me to do some introspection too. Why do I do this? Is it just the thrill of having secret? Do I really think I could be pretty? I have the feminine hands and feet but ohhhhh that face. So many random thoughts have consumed my afternoon.
Thanks for “listening” and I so appreciate CDH as a way to share my day.
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