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So I’ve been a member on the site for a few months now but haven’t introduced myself yet. While I’m super excited to have found this community, to be honest, I’m very nervous and unsure of myself in general and frankly very scared to share. But I really want to share! And have worked up the courage to try. So…a little background on me, I’m Emilene (but like going by Emmy). I’ve dabbled in crossdressing for years, going back to early teens, (panties, heels, the occasional skirt – all at home and followed by an immediate purge) but only truly tried dressing fully en femme last year.
It’s hard to describe the feeling of stepping out as a woman for the first time, although I’m sure many of you girls can relate. Exhilarating, freeing, sexy, authentic, at peace, powerful, joyful, and just so incredibly feminine were just some of the many feelings, all blended with an intense adrenaline rush. I can still remember sitting in my car, heart pumping out of my bra covered chest as I tried to work up the courage to enter the grocery store. I’ve gone out a few times since, only doing relatively simple errands, but I truly can’t describe how special doing them as a woman felt, even if it was such a dichotomy of thoughts and feelings. In some ways, I’ve never felt more confident in who I was, but still I was weak in the knees as I walked delicately through the store. I was so proud of myself, but couldn’t make eye contact with anyone as wave after wave of fear and shame came over me. I felt so true to who I always knew I was, but was also completely and utterly confused about absolutely everything that I was doing.
For many reasons, Emilene is a part of my life that would be hard to share publicly (or even privately), so she must remain a secret, at least for now. Honestly writing this post has me trembling, which feels silly but in reality this is the first time that I’ve ever even acknowledged in words how I feel and who I am. I’ve actually rewritten variations of this introduction post at least ten times now but each time lost the courage to post. I had initially intended to just be a lurker on the site for reassurance and to get ideas about how to be more feminine, but the support and kindness that is shared by the lovely ladies on this site has me truly inspired. Thank you to all of you ladies on this site for being such a great support system to each other, a true sisterhood – and such a testament to CDH and what a safe space it is.
It has been many months now since I’ve been able to be my feminine self, but I think I’ll have that opportunity again in the coming days. My heart is racing as I think about applying my makeup, trying on various outfits and hearing the beautiful sound of heels clicking as I walk. I’m trying to work up the courage to post a picture but I’m not there yet, maybe (hopefully) soon.
Anyhow, thank you again to all of you. I have so much love for you girls and I consider myself so lucky to be a part of this community.
Hugs to all,
Emmy
Hi Emmy. It is so great that you felt comfortable to share your story. I know it was tough for me as well, but so glad I did share it. It sounds like you are well on your journey. You have found a place here at CDH filled with encouraging ladies. I look forward to seeing where your journey takes you.
Welcome Again, Jessica
Hey Emmy welcome to CDH and thanks for taking a big step outside your comfort zone! The stuff you’re going thru is relatable to pretty much all of us. It does get easier. I can say in all honesty CDH changed my life. This place is the real deal. Stick around and stay involved. Magic happens around here!
Happy Holidays!
/EA
Hi Emmy welcome to CDH it’s nice to meet you, we are like one big happy family on here so don’t be shy come on in and join the family, don’t be scared or ashamed we have all been through the same sort of thing that you have been feeling, it’s who we are we just like our feminine side only a crossdresser knows how another crossdresser feels, I’m a mature crossdresser I’ve been dressing most of my life since i was about 8 or 9 years old when i tried my older sister’s lingerie on, I’m sorry i can’t meet up with you for a coffee ☕ I’m on the other side of the pond in the UK, I’m sure there are lots of girls near to where you live who will be happy to meet up with you for a coffee and a chat, I’m a part time crossdresser because I’m still in the closet to my wife and family, because of the lock downs we have had over the last 2 years Roz has been stuck in the closet I’m hoping she will be able to emerge some time next year,
Hugs Rozalyn X 💋
Emmy,
Please know that you are among friends here who will give you what ever advice and support you may need. We all were a nervous at the start of our journeys but it will abate as you get more experience under your belt. It’s good you took the opportunity to introduce yourself, that’s a step in the right direction. Welcome to the group!
Fiona
Well hello 👋 I am full time girl 👧 since I was 9. My first time out was exciting it felt good and from then on I just had to go full time. We are glad to have you welcome to the site
Hello Emmy thanks for sharing your story and welcome to CDH I am glad you have shared who you are and found us and made the step to become part of a family that is welcoming, understanding, compassionate, and supportive. While we are all similar and have many of the same desires we all differ on our goals or public expression and or level of personal experiences. I encourage you to explore the many forums, topics, polls and member biographies found here as there are a wide range of members all over the spectrum of feminine expression or those on the path to transition and those that have. There are also links to websites that have products and services that may help you on your own personal path of acceptance and self expression. Ultimately it is a place, home, or world were you can feel feel comfortable and confident in who you are; as being who you truly are as your authentic self of you being a man, a woman, or expressing your feminine desires feelings and or qualities. I am happy you are here and have made a choice to accept this part of yourself as self acceptance is the most important thing you can do for yourself and others. You can’t expect others to accept you if you don’t accept yourself all of you. As you are sharing a part of your authentic self here on CDH it ultimately lifts some of the burden that you may be feeling which many of us have carried for what seems like a lifetime you are not alone. I am happy you have made the step to be here. Welcome!
Hugs April
Hi Emmy nice to meet you and so happy you found and joined us girls here so get settled in relax and enjoy yourself here.. As a new sister and family member you are welcomed with open arms into our home as well as yours now also.. Girl there is so much to see and do here from reading the forums and posts from many ladies telling there stories about the femme journeys they are on .. When you get comfortable with us please join in with a story or two about the life and times of Emmy as she travels down her own girly path in life.. As for making friends here there are so many ladies from all over the world to build long lasting friendships with and best of all girlfriend we are just a simple click away.. Just do us a small favor and return to your profile page then fill in some more please as this is how we get to know you better thankyou.. Once again nice to meet you and hope to see you around for a chat sometime soon..
Stephanie Bass
Thank you all for the kind words, the advice and the encouragement. It truly touches and warms the depths of my heart. I am very much of the opinion that I’m in the very early steps of this journey, and there is an exciting and beautiful path in front of me, but I just have to have the courage to keep walking and see where it takes me.
Thank you again for everything girls,
Emmy
Hello Emmie
Welcome to CDH, a large and welcoming family. It’s a pleasure to meet you here.
Here you will be able to exchange opinions and information and find support to go forward in your enfemme adventure.
Have fun participating in the forums and questionnaires.
Here no one is judged, but always welcomed with a warm embrace.I’m Greta, a 56-year-old cd/tg person (I’m taking my first steps in hrt); with a life that is a bit complicated by having to hide my gender identity…..when I’m alone at home and I know I have no guests, I’m Greta, if I’m at work or I have guests at home, I’m Greta, externally dressed as Mr. Antonio (lol) but I’m wearing women’s underwear.
XOXOX from Italy 🇮🇹
Greta ❤️
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