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Hello, Ladies. I am Jessica Ann.
I have been logging on to Crossdresser Heaven for close to a year now, but I didn’t open my Duchess account until just this morning. I’m new to the whole online chatroom thing in general and find myself a little intimidated and overwhelmed by the whole experience. But that has more to do with my inexperience with using a computer than it is with communicating with people.
I joined Crossdresser Heaven because I was seeking a place where I can create friendships with others like me who understand and can relate to what it means to have a part of yourself that loves femininity and longs to express their own innate feminine qualities.
I started wearing feminine clothes when I was around 14. (My current age is unlisted. But it is somewhere between 50 & 52.) I don’t actually remember the first time that I slipped into something feminine. I don’t know what caused me to do it. I do know that the desire to slip into something pretty and feminine has been a part of me for close to forty years now. These desires have been a love hate dynamic in me. Dressing in something pretty and feminine has given be the most thrilling of pleasures over the years, but has also filled me with confusion, anxiety, and even self-loathing. I’ve struggled with the whole self identity aspects that come from having such desires with in me, as well the whole society and religious aspects. For many, many years I have viewed myself as a freak, a pervert, and yes, even a sinner because of these desires.
It wasn’t until my near fatal heart attack a few years back that I was finally able to make my peace with who and what I am. After coming out of the medically induced coma that they put me in to save my life I found myself realizing that life is too precious and too short to live in shame. I came to realize that there really no point in being ashamed of something that gives me great pleasure and that doesn’t cause any actual harm to me or anyone else.
I’m still in the process of discovering & exploring Jessica Ann. I am enjoying the process of discovering, exploring and figuring out what her tastes are in clothing, in make up, in hair styles, in perfumes. One thing that I have discovered is that she just loves wearing a bra and panties, as well as shopping for them. I’ve discovered that she loves wearing high heeled sandles, loves shaving her legs and armpits. I’ve also discovered that she love putting on make up, but that she is not very good at it.
Well, I guess that is enough about me for now. This is just an introduction after all. It is my hope that you have enjoyed what I have to say and are intrigued enough to want to get to know about me. feel free to reach out to me and make a comment or ask me a question or two. I am aching for a little girl talk.
Jessica Ann Flowers
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