Hi there, I'm Ashley!

[ashleyray]

Hi all!

Long time lurker, and am at a point in my life that I’m starting to accept who I am, and thus wish to connect with others like me.

For a long time I had these swirls of feminine thoughts and desires, early as a little boy. But when you’re that young, do you really know what they are? Same with being a teenager and the first time I ventured to wearing a bra, it felt fun and natural, but triggered a deep sense of shame and guilt that repressed my feminine self until my mid twenties. By then, I went through binge and purge cycles, which are financially and emotionally exhausting.

By my early 30s, my disability got worse, and I lost the outlet to dress in secret, but I compensated by lurking forums like this and reading fashion magazines. A few weeks ago, I came out to a friend, which shocked even me. I didn’t plan to do it, but it felt right (I’ll share that story in another post). She accepted me wholeheartedly and we talked like two girls:) She encouraged me to join Pinterest (done) and look for other ways to open up.

And here I am.

I’m Ashley:)

[Lucinda Hawkns]

i know how you feel and i have been there. i am 54 and medically retired, i started when i was about in my teens.it started with wearing tights in a school play, i was hooked. from there on i went further in dressing up and loved the feeling and look of me being female. i am now buying my own dresses and nylons, bras, panties, pads, perfume, make up. wife knows of my desire to dress up but will not see me dressed up as a female, nor help with make up. she tells me when the 2 adult kids that still live at home are going out and i can do what i want to do. well enough of me . can tell more later. but we all have the same story in common. welcome to this site were we all understand .

[Anonymous]

Hi Ashley and welcome to CDH.

 

Rachel

[Lucinda Hawkns]

Hi Ashley welcome to C.D.H.

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