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I joined Crossdresser Heaven once before, but had to leave. Not because of anything or anyone on the site, everyone was wonderful. I just took the chance of coming out to my wife, and it did not go well. In order to save our marriage as well as preserve my relationship with almost everyone I know, I had to pretend it was a phase and purge everything from my life that had anything to do with my femme side.
And for a short time, it was okay. Then, it wasn’t. As I kept pushing down my thoughts and feelings, things got darker and darker for me (though, I believe most around me were unaware).
Recently, I decided to again start buying some feminine clothes for myself. And I have found almost immediate peace from those demons. I will have to keep it secret, stay in the closet. But it seems like the only option open to me.
So, that’s me! Michelle the mess. Thank you for reading, I look forward to getting to know you all better soon!
Welcome back Michelle.
Hi Michelle, and we seem to be two of a kind… Want to exchange experiences?
Hug,
Catarina
Hello.
Purging seems to be part of the whole experience when we have to keep things secret, i got lucky as my Wife knows, but no other family do. However I still keep trying to put Lacey back in a box and nailing the lid shut … never succesfully
Please be careful, Secrets with me do tend to come back and bite …….. i hate the sneaking round and double checking myself ….. but be true to yourself as well.
Lacey
Michelle happy to have you back. Sorry to hear about your wife . I cherish my wife and would never hurt or harm her in any way in our marriage. I understand your concerns and would do exactly that to keep our relationship intacked. It’s so hard to not feel for being who you feel to be and I would find it very hard not to, so be careful and keep what’s most important to you. Best to you and your journey ahead. We’re here and will help and support you through this time.
Stephanie 🌹
Hi Michelle,
If I may, you might just try “underdressing” or even “hybrid mode” dressing. Like I do, you can fly just under the radar, and maybe find more peace. It is difficult, and the sacrifice you made before is evident you are a fine and caring person.
I’m sorry you however you have to suffer and make the sacrifice because others are not as fine and caring as you are.
Hang in there, do what you can to take care of yourself, and your feminine needs. It is worth it, worth your health and well being.
Love and hugs,
R
Michelle…welcome home my sister. I am sorry for the pain you have suffered but living your life for others is very hard. Sis…be all you can be and be happy….things and circumstances chane. In the end we must be true to ourselves. Look forward to hearing more from you. If I can be of assistance….my door is always open.
Hugs…
Dame Veronica
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