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      Lola Caprice
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      Registered On: May 26, 2021
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      I’d have to say no. Can’t think of anything I would do differently and no desire to relive it all.

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      Bobbie W
      Registered On: May 18, 2021
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      Simple answer for me is yes. But I would do a lot different biggest of all is I wouldn’t have suppressed Bobbie.

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      Sarah Kanter
      Registered On: April 25, 2019
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      This is an interesting question. I think about it often, in this and other contexts. If I could go back with the knowledge I have now, then there are certainly things I’d like to do differently.

      With cross dressing, the point I’m at now took a great deal of growth and maturity to get to. I sometimes think of all the time I wanted to dress up and didn’t as wasted time, but looking at myself, I also don’t think I would have been able to enjoy it in the way I do now, or balance it correctly with other aspects of my life had I started earlier. My wife and I talked about cross dressing from the beginning of our marriage and it’s taken her time to accept (or at least tolerate) this part of me. I think our marriage would have really suffered had I ignored her feelings early on.

      I don’t know. In many ways, the opportunities I have to dress up now (going to the office or the store) feel like things I’ve grown into with time. While part of me wishes I could have been enjoying cross dressing freely for my entire life, another part of me recognizes that I had to develop in other ways first in order to really enjoy it now.

      Not sure if that makes any sense!


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      Registered On: January 9, 2021
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      Hell Yes! This is reminiscent of a poll question from a while ago. Who wouldn’t want to go back with the knowledge that years of life have provided. As a previous poster said the understanding that the urge to dress wasn’t going to go away, would be enough to make me want to go back. This simple understanding would have alleviated years of guilt and shame, self exploration over time has allowed me to enjoy a level of comfort in my own skin. But if I could go back and do it again I would, many things would be different most importantly my mindset and comfortability with myself would certainly improve hence my life would improve. We all have regrets in life, things we should have handled differently, personally cding is among those things.

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      Registered On: June 22, 2019
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      My earliest moment was at 16 when i used mothers clothes dress tights bra.

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      Dawn Star
      Registered On: February 3, 2021
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      I would love to relive my earliest CD days and I believe would not be as inhibited as I did when I first cross dressed. With what I know today, I would embrace the fact that I have always been quite feminine in body. But when I first cross dressed I was embarrassed with the woman that came out of me then and the shame of it. Yes I looked good in a dress – but due to my gender conditioning I had a hard time with the feelings it generated in me. Now that I understand myself better I am happy to be called mam in the grocery store, as happened yesterday. Yes, I would enjoy more my first cross dressing experience again and yes I would feel better in my feminine skin. 🙂

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      Jennie James
      Registered On: March 15, 2021
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      I say yes if I could relive them starting today and not be aware of my life as it is today. A lot to ask but as long as we’re just playing, I might as well ask for it all!
      There are so many more options and social awareness and acceptance today. Since I was 7 for my first experience, I could do a lot of things differently at an earlier age. One more caveat. My younger self would have to know how the desires never go away!

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      Stevie Steiner
      Registered On: June 11, 2020
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      I’d love to re-live it as long as I could change some bad choices I made with my CD’ing.   Otherwise NO, could not go thru all that again.  I Barely lived through the pain and misery first time around.   I’ve paid my dues to get to where I am – I’m pretty much at the finish line with it (yayy!!) – once was enough!


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      Stephanie Kennedy
      Registered On: March 15, 2019
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      Hi Holly NO I would not to relive my past . Too much confusion,questioning who I am.why am I like this? If I could relive my past and change a few things that I would consider as long as it did not impact what I have today


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      Alison Anderson
      Registered On: October 15, 2018
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      I’m another who would have to say no. I had desires about as far back as I can remember, which would mean reliving my whole life.

      I’ve answered similar questions here before, and always the same.  I’ve seen the butterfly effect (or chaos theory) numerous times in my life.  How seemingly small decisions, choices, or the lack thereof have had large consequences. If someone asks if I want to make large changes to the past, who knows how it would affect me, let alone the people whose lives I have touched?  Would I still have kids?  Would they be the same?  Would I have the same friends?  Would I be there to support them when they needed it?

      Taken to the extreme, we are who we are because a particular sperm “won the race.”  How little do we have to change the conditions so that a different sperm wins the race, and we’re a completely different person?

      So even if I wanted to do it, I couldn’t do it simply from a moral perspective.



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      Heather Jameson
      Registered On: April 1, 2019
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      No thanks, what I went through in the early years, I barely survived the first time, not taking any chances again.

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      Amanda Burton
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      Simply no Holly. Been there done it, don’t need to go there again.

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      Regi Kelly
      Registered On: October 9, 2020
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      I dont see a vote, but I vote no, I am happy now, and only looking forward
      Hugs, Regi👸💕

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      Grace Scarlett
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      No thanks Holly…

      It’s taken too long and too much of everything!!!…to get where I am today….I’m happy….

      if it’s not broke….it don’t need mending!!!

      Grace xx

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      Michelle Trott
      Registered On: April 7, 2021
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      No for me too. Guilt shame not worth going thru again. Plus I sucked at it.

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      Bettylou Cox
      Registered On: May 26, 2019
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      I really don’t know; it would depend on the definition of “earliest CD moments”. If I could return to that time about 8 years ago when my femme side began to assert itself, and knowing where it was taking me, then OH. YES! So many things to do and places to go before circumstance pinned me down at home.
      But if it meant going back to 1950, when I agonized over the thought that perhaps I was “supposed to have been a girl, but something went wrong”: Never! Suppressing that was the only way I even survived those times, and they were not good.


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      Holly Goodrich
      Registered On: April 19, 2021
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      I also voted no, for much the same reasons. During the yeard between 2005 and 2018, I took so much abuse from my (late) ex, I oftrn thought of suicide.
      If I had to do it again, I would damn sure take my life.

      Hugz, Holly

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      Registered On: January 17, 2021
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      voted no been through rough times and good times in past and now being content on present. Looking towards future now to be a woman.

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