I am a college student that has been crossdressing in private since I was about 13. I find it exhilarating, I have went out in public dressed up but not in my home town. This post is the closest I’ve ever came to telling someone about what I do. Over the years I have bought, disposed of, and bought more of, many women’s clothing items, makeup, nail polish. Not really sure what I’m looking for in this community I just know it feels good to know I am not alone.
The long story for those who care to keep reading:
I am not sure how much people will care about my story, but I’m going to briefly tell it; feel free to skip over the details as my little introduction is done. Late 7th grade a girl had stuck a bobby pin in my hair while I wasn’t looking. I found myself enraged and then incredibly confused about this. One day when my mom wasn’t home I used some of her nail polish and from there every time I was left alone with women’s clothing or accessories I would use them. It gave and continues to give me such a rush and just feels great. The most incredible experience I had was going into a mall sporting my step-mom’s tights, dress, makeup, nail polish, and a wig I had purchased. I left the mall almost immediately as it was incredibly nerve-racking. Crossdressing in private is a ton of fun for me but not as trilling as doing so in public, although I do it more because it is safer and easier. Over the years my hobby has caused me great distress. I have always been so confused on what makes me enjoy crossdressing. I enjoy being a man and I am attracted to women yet in the back of my mind I have always wondering if my crossdressing made me ineligible for these things. I have came up with two explanations for my hobby over the years. The first is that I love the thrill of doing something that so many others, including me for a long time, thought was so strange and wrong, that the taboo factor of it was a draw. The other stems from the fact that in adolescence I was terrible at talking to girls yet I was attracted to them so in a weird way, by crossdressing, I was making a girl for myself, and coincidentally of myself, to be close with. I don’t know what I expect of this post but it certainly felt good to make it. Feel free to ask me any questions or just to say hi.
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