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Ever had a dream come true ?
Late last year Sue suggested a get together of members here in the UK. Like most parents finances are tight, and spending on the kids usually takes priority, but for once decided to put me first if the opportunity arose. Then came a couple of possible dates, I immediately requested time off work to allow me to attend the second date and started planning, kids spend weekend with the ex.✔️Hotel✔️Train✔️Then the hardest part – getting glammed up !
I have only ever been out en femme driving, window shopping etc, never interacting with anybody, trying to blend in, and I guess not be noticed. This meet may be my one and only chance to let this desire in me out fully so I determined to go the whole nine yards. The venue was Pink Punters, a large LGBT club near London. Their website has a photo gallery each week which which I studied for ideas. I also asked advice from friends on this site and got some helpful and honest opinions. Hit the shops many times over the weeks leading up to the event, and ideas and a list of requirements grew and grew, as did the bag I was planning to bring.
Left my home at 5am on the big day for a five hundred mile rail trip with my thoughts and feelings in overdrive. Arrived at the hotel mid afternoon then set to work.
For the first time in my life I shaved EVERYWHERE except the hair on my head, then moisturised my whole body with a gorgeous smelling lotion, turned up the heating, and just let it soak in for a while totally naked. Next got out the self tanning mousse, and discovered you have to be a bit of a contortionist to apply it to your back, and again let it soak in. I thought it was a bit dark, noticed it said on the bottle even after it is washed off it leaves the skin with a ‘healthy glow’, so I jumped in the shower and watched as a puddle of beige developed around my feet ! worrying I had just wasted my time. When I dried myself and looked in the mirror I was stunned, no longer a peelywally (pale and sickly looking) Scot, but my skin actually had a healthy glow, and OMG looked so feminine. Why have I never done this before ???? I moisturised again, and while waiting for it to soak in, I applied my nail polish to nails which I had been growing,nurturing,filing for a few weeks. I picked some nice underwear to get the shape right and suit the outfit.
Then the face, plucked and shaped the brows as much as I dared, applied primer, foundation ( even some down to my chest ), eyeliner, eyebrows, eyeshadow, some blusher on the cheeks, lipstick and gloss.. Then the fake lashes😲needs a lot of patience and manual dexterity, but eventually managed and thought they created extra impact to the eyes. Then some mascara to the bottom lashes, job done !
Doh, the hair, fixed, brushed and clips to keep it off my face. Jewellery, rings, bangle, earrings, and a couple of necklaces, one of which was a choker with a clasp which was sooooo fiddly to clasp behind the neck tight enough so it would stay in place. Mental note – put it on before the hair next time( if there is a next time) would have been so much easier.
Slipped into a burgundy above the knee skirt and sleeveless peplum top which matched my skirt ( almost). This was the reason I spent so much time on the skin as I knew my arms and legs would be uncovered. Having looked at the recent photo gallery of the venue, open toed black heeled sandals and a smart leather (faux😂) jackets seemed to be on trend so I got them to finish the look, plus a gorgeos little bag(purse to my American friends) with a chain strap to hold my essentials (hairbrush,lipgloss,cash,phone). Final spray of some perfume, and ready to go. At least four hours of the best fun, and I was happy with the results. As the saying goes’ be the best you can be’, and I think I came pretty close.
Now the hard part, a final check in the mirror, and take that giant leap, into the corridor ! I was so relieved to see some familiar faces in the hotel restaurant I started to relax a bit, and was so impressed with everybody’s confidence. On chatting it became clear that I was one of the ‘newbies’ as far as crossdressing is concerned, and friends had come longer distances than I to attend.
The venue was just across the road from the hotel, but there was a small muddy grass verge to contend with, not usually a problem, but in heels !!! We soldiered on.
The venue was huge, entry, security etc no problem, and I was so glad when Liv suggested heading for the dance floor. I have danced in heels in my own home and loved it, but this was a million times better. I have no idea how long it lasted but I was as happy on that dance floor as I have been for a very long time, as probably evidenced by the huge stupid grin I could not get off my face ! Just loads of happy people enjoying the music, and looking around at all the stunningly beautiful girls around me I felt inside for a short time that I was one of those girls, having fun, no inhibitions, just moving to the music and loving it.
Even a visit to the toilet was exciting. They were mixed male/ female with cubicals. Now I know why women make such a big deal about toilet seats. I was planning to do the girly thing and sit down but the seat had been sprayed on. What do you do girls ? I didn’t fancy squatting over the toilet in heels with my knickers round my ankles ( would probably have ended up in A&E) so I chickened out and reverted to male mode behind the locked door! After washing my hands I even had the confidence to get out my hairbrush and lipgloss to do some beauty maintenance in the mirror, a woman nearby was doing the same❤️
Back on the dancefloor I could have danced until my feet bled, and a good looking woman kept making eye contact with me ( or maybe just staring at a man dressed as a woman )anyway it felt good. Alas all good things must come to an end. Back to the hotel, out of the clothes, off with the nailpolish and makeup slipped into some silky pjs and Chilled with some wine and the latest edition of Cosmopolitan I picked up at the train station.
Anyway it was my ‘One night in heaven, sorry if it bored you but I just had to share. Thanks to Sue, the inspiration behind the idea, Liv for being a friend and showing us your confidence and ability on the dancefloor💃and all the other members who helped me relax. Also thanks to Pink Punters , where you can be confident and relaxed regardless of age, gender, sexual orientation etc. Wish I could do it every weekend, crossdressers in Milton Keynes you are sooooo lucky. And thanks to CDH for bringing like minded people together to help us enjoy our wonderful obsession.
love
Bianca
I feel so fortunate we met in person. You are a lovely and gorgeous looking girl! Never did I feel you were nervous, you were just having fun. It was an amazing experience to be there and be ourselves.
I love the way you wrote about this experience and recognize the feelings and the giant leap you take when you get out of your room. But trust me, your confidence will grow and you will want to do this again. I can only hope I we will meet again someday.
hugs and love, Liv <3
What a wonderful experience you have written about so elequently. Like others I’m sure, I read this story with a tinge of apprehension hoping that everything would turn out alright, and was relieved to find you had a great time with nothing negative to spoil the night. Loved the story. Hope you get another chance.
Bianca,
I feel so happy that you enjoyed yourself. You traveled a long way, I had no idea that you were coming until Liv told me.
Was wonderful to meet you – I’m do sorry I didn’t get more time to talk to you, I was spread a bit thin on the night.
Hopefully – I am hoping that the next event will be further north – so maybe we will see you again?
Take care
Sue
xx
Thanks again Sue,don’t apologise about not having time to chat, just having you and other members around made a difference.
Please don’t change any future venues on my account, I totally understand there are many more members in the south and southeast, and the vicinity around London makes it much easier for all our International friends to attend if they so wish.
love
Bianca
just glad you came and joined us Bianca hun and you enjoyed you few hours with us huggs kaydee
Bianca, I am so glad you took the chance to come to Milton Keynes and that I did it at the same occasion. It was an honour to meet you. I sensed your initial nervousness and thought it was for meeting us all. Now I understand there were so many more feelings involved behind your fabulous outward presentation. I can only congratulate you for taking this huge step and hope we will se each other again sometime in the future.
Marianne
Bianca,
i know that, but we also have members in Newcastle, Manchester and Leeds.
if you can find a venue in Scotland – let me know hon
sooz
xxxx
What a fantastic evening you had Bianca and enjoyed reading your blow by blow description of your experience and was comforted to know how you felt more relaxed as the evening progressed. Congrats on your first big evening out en femme and look forward to hearing about more adventures in the future! I am really proud of you and so happy for you☺
Bianca,
So great to hear about your experience, would love an opportunity to go out with the girls. Maybe try and get an event arranged in Scotland or the North would be great. Truly ‘One Night in Heaven’!
Renee Xx
Hello Bianca; Thank you for sharing your incredible first girl’s night out story. A story like that is never boring. I think it would be so much fun to go to a club with a group of ladies. Have you had the chance to do this again or more often since you posted this? I hope you have. It seemed to be a natural part of you.
Hi Brittney
Thanks for you kind words.
I would love to repeat my experience again sometime buuuuut ! It is so hard to organise.
I need to request time off work usually 6+ weeks ahead. It has to be during school holidays when my ex takes the kids for half of the holidays. Money is tight, as a single parent there is always something sucking all the money from my account.
All that said you are so right Brittney, it does feel like a natural part of me and made me so happy. Life enhancing. Times like these make it all worthwhile.
Nobody I know knows about the Bianca on me. I would not go out on my own.
You are so lucky having a support group and others who know about the Brittney in you. I would just love to have others ( crossdressers or females) to go out on a GNO now and again just for fun. Do you go out much with your best Brittney on show? Been out dancing?
Funny thing when I am in my drab male mode I can’t dance on the dance floor, feels so inhibited and self conscious,but when Bianca was let loose it just felt so natural to move to the music. Loved it.
love
B
Hi..bianca,
It was a great experince and thanks for sharing with us and don’t worry no one is going to be bored. Such a great night out dear.
Wonderful to see you are spreading your wings and venturing out an about !
Pandora is out of the box so — Next time you can go Fem on the train journey !
PP is a lovely venue and has the best loo’s that Ive ever seen in a night club – most of the girls I know have had their photos on the lounger in the ladies !
We must find you a venue near to home for you to go to in safety
huge hugs and happiness
Dawn
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Thanks Dawn
Nowhere nearby to match PP
To be honest I felt better with it being far away, guaranteeing anonymity. I knew there was zero chance of being recognised.
Expensive (it’s not often I treat myself) and a long journey yes, but the East coast Train is a fairly easy trip to MK. And yes if I ever was to do it again would travel en femme. I don’t think any of my neighbours would be up before 5am when I would leave. Still would rather they did not know.
And having a Hotel room right across the road from the venue was perfect to let me get ready for the night, and chill after it.
When we get on top of this virus who knows, perhaps I will even get a Second Night in Heaven. Maybe even a chance to finally meet you. Although I may be a bit antisocial, will just want to dance all night💃🤣.
❤️B
Yes, I’d love a chance to come to an event like that in the North. Lovely story, was not bored in the least.
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