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- December 22, 2017 at 6:09 pm #78983Anonymous
Passing
There was a time when I thought passing was a necessity. Passing, the ability to be recognized as a “real” woman, would allow me to move around in public without having to deal with any of issues that might result, when someone recognized my birth gender.
So, for the longest time, I found myself consumed by the need to pass. Unfortunately, I possess secondary male characteristics that are impossible to completely hide. No matter how hard I tried to feminize my appearance, there was always enough maleness showing through to give me away. Even after perfecting my camouflage skills, my feminine persona has never been absolutely foolproof.
Knowing that I was going to be clocked most of the time, caused my ventures out into public spaces to be stressful and generally uncomfortable. The nervousness that resulted, tended to mute any enjoyment, and kept me from fulfilling my need for feminine self-expression.
Finally, though, I experienced an epiphany of sorts. I began to realize that my need to pass, was being fueled by the belief that I needed to look authentically feminine to express what I was feeling inside. I was trying to measure my femininity based upon how I was being perceived by others. I was trying to achieve an aesthetic that would satisfy others, an aesthetic by the way, that was virtually impossible for me to achieve. What I finally realized, was, the only important aesthetic, was the one that pleased me.
As soon as I stopped worrying about what other people thought of my appearance, and focused on the appearance that made me feel feminine, I was instantly liberated. I accepted the fact that I was never going to pass as an authentic woman, and in doing so, I freed myself of all the stress and discomfort that was hindering my self-expression.
I would like to make a personal observation about the concept of passing. I have learned that passing has a lot less to do with my looks and way more to do with how I present. Presentation is the real key. When I take the time to dress nicely, carry myself in an unassuming feminine manner, and do it all with confidence, I find myself “passing” in spite the fact that some of my physical, male attributes might be showing.
When I stopped worrying about how I was being perceived by others and began satisfying my own sense of feminine beauty, I discovered the means to achieve real, feminine, self-expression. My external expression of femininity had finally mirrored the way I was feeling on the inside, and when that occurred, others began seeing the woman that had always existed within.
- December 22, 2017 at 6:48 pm #78985
Thank you so much Sally for sharing this. I am planning my first public en femme sojourn in a couple of weeks. I do not expect to pass-especially when I have to speak with my bass voice. I think I have myself convinced it doesn’t matter what a stranger might think of me. Some may be troubled and still others impressed–especially if as you suggest I am confident in me and allow me to just be the Stephanie I dream every day of being . Your words are reassuring. Hugs. Stephanie
- December 23, 2017 at 12:16 am #79014
Sally beautifully written. One thing I feel important that you have mentioned is its not what the outer shell may appear to be its what’s inside that matters. True to the feelings that one embraces is the real meaning of a self expressions. 🌹
- December 23, 2017 at 11:09 am #79085
Sally, thank you for telling your story for us. We all lose sight of what is important in life and need a reminder now and then.
We are we, and no-body else. We are happy with what we are and how we look….which is not for anyone else. You must please yourself in this life, we are here for ourselves, not to please others….if we do, that is a bonus. As Popeye says….”I yam what I yam and that is all that I yam”!
Merry Christmas to all.
Lady Veronica
- December 23, 2017 at 1:52 pm #79102
Sally, your words mean a lot and that goes with the inner beauty you have come to embrace. Any woman will tell you physical beauty os fleeting, but you can keep your heart beautiful at all times. I’m sure more than a few girls will find this post to be inspirational.
Hugs, Cloe
- January 1, 2018 at 2:57 pm #80312
You are so right
although i dont try to pass
you are correct in being happy with who u are and how you ate feeling inside
how many times have we heard from or about genetic females
beauty is from the inside
ROCK ON !
- January 1, 2018 at 9:22 pm #80351
Thanks Sally ,you are right.I know I will never pass as a woman totally,but I have decided to do the best I can.After making that decision,I was at peace with myself .
- January 5, 2018 at 6:09 pm #80987Anonymous
Hey Sally thanks for sharing your thoughts on passing. I too have experienced the same epiphany. I don’t fret about trying to pass as a woman and think about enjoying the moment as I am. Z
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