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      Mickie
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      I also just started to accept myself as a very caring and loving girl. My current goal is two fold. One is to take this accepted lady with me every place I go and no mater how I am dressed and the second is to go out in public as a women as soon as I can. My wife is helping me with the first goal and the second goal I will need to help her with. I ware panties every day, dress up each morning as I am the first one up and this is my alone time. As with many of you if not all of you I am the most happy when I feel and look as feminine as possible. Taking Mickie with me all day without the clothes is not easy at this point but I do think of myself as a crossdresser in all I do. By accepting myself guilt free I love being a women. I also love watching women, what they ware, watching them move how they talk and so many times I get lost in thought of how it must feel and how I can emulate them. I love watching so many different television shows now, my wife and I have long conversations about dresses, makeup, how the stars look and what would be fun to ware. I love being her girlfriend.

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      Raquel Smith
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      Hi Cece,

      My name is Raquel and I’m a crossdresser.

      It feels so good to be able to say those words. While I may be “in the closet”, a lot of introspection and talking things out with the girls here on CDH, have at least made me comfortable in my own mind with being who I am. And who I am, is partly my old male self and partly Raquel. Circumstances prevent me from sharing Raquel with the whole world, but people who have met her, like her. And so do I. 🥰

      Much love,
      Raquel

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      Aurora Borealis
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      Dear Cece X,

      I know what Im doing is not “normal” but I love it!
      Like you Im a cross-dresser as enfemme or in man mode, tthe clothes are different and my attitude is different when dressed. Sometimes Ido wish that I could be dressed as a woman 24/7. Hugs, Aurora B.

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      Hope Roberts
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      Cece,

      I second your shout out to this wonderful site. Embrace your identity and don’t wait till you’re my age to learn how to truly express your womanhood ❤️💋

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    • #645709
      Elizabeth Jenkins
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      Yes, I self-identify as a crossdresser no matter how I’m dressed. I was in denial until I had ‘the talk’ with my wife and I felt myself blush when said the words, “I’m a crossdresser. I enjoy wearing women’s clothes.” That was eighteen years ago and until that moment I never felt like a complete person.

      I was eighteen years old when I first encountered the ‘pink fog’ and thought it was a fetish that would soon go away but now I know it doesn’t work that way. For the next 31 years the desire became even stronger until I could no longer cope with the guilt of hiding this part of my life from my wife.

       

      Elizabeth

       

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      Venus Envy
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      I think I always knew I am a crossdresser, though I used transvestite when I started 60 plus years ago. As did the rest of the world for the most part at that time.

      The hardest, but most liberating part, has been recently becoming able to identify myself to friends, counselors,nurse practitioner and her nurse,hair stylist, spa/manicurist,and implicitly other salon personel.
      All but 3 are GG’s.

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      Stephanie MacNeil
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      I always knew what I was doing was crossdressing, but it wasn’t until about 10 years ago that I could affirmatively look at myself and say “I am a crossdresser”.   It was a nice moment of growth and truth.
      I also can say I’m a transvestite.  I know some shy away from that term, but to me it literally means the same thing, and I don’t need to run from it.   I’m a male who is writing this in a dress, pantyhose, high heels, makeup and a wig.  If that’s not a transvestite, then I don’t know what is.  And it’s ok.

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        Venus Envy
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        Yes!
        Realizing and living “That’s OK” has been my biggest accomplishment.

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      Suzanne Martin
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      Cece –

      Thank you for your post.

      Like many I started in my youth wearing my mother’s things, as I got older dressing was something I did on very rare occasions.  When I did I enjoyed it but there was a lot of guilt and shame associated with it.  It was  a bit over 2 years ago that my dressing came up in a conversation with my wife, which is another story.  As a result I started dressing more frequently privately as she doesn’t want to see me dressed, I also keep it in the house per our agreement.  At her suggestion I started therapy and as a result I have come to realize and accept that Suzanne is part of me no matter how I am dressed.  It is very liberating to be able to do so.

      XOXO

      Suzanne

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      Kelly Terry
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      While saying “I’m a crossdresser” feels a little like sitting in some ring and say “I’m a drug addict” or something like that it’s not at all the same. Being a crossdresser should be as strange as “my favourite color is red”.

      I have now gone down the path of just letting Kelly out all the time, gone to stores, food orders and so on. I been ready with a few replies but so far no one have said anything and at most they taken a second look but that’s it.

      /kt

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      Angela Booth
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      That sums me up to Lauren, I had no idea what a crossdresser was when I started to dress. It just felt right. Oh the innocence of youth! It still feels right after all these years and if that is a crossdresser then that’s me to a ‘T’ day and night.

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      Liara Wolfe
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      Like you I see myself as a CD no matter if I am dressed or not. I enjoy being feminine and some times it comes out in drab.

      Hugs, LIara

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      Lauren Mugnaia
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      Hmmm…where to start? I tried on some of my mom’s things when I was only 5, but I didn’t think of myself as a crossdresser, at that point in my life I didn’t even know what a crossdresser was, I just knew I was supposed to be a girl! That awareness followed me through my school years when I was still dressing and everyone thought I was gay because my femininity didn’t hide itself very well. Fast forward to now and I have finally come to a time in my life where I have fully accepted, and am proud to be, not only a crossdresser, but also a transgender woman living her life to it’s fullest capacity and loving it!!

      Love you girls!

      Lauren M

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      Brielle Ross
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      For me, since I’m on HRT and identify as a transwoamn, crossdressing has always been wearing guy clothes! I just didn’t know it before (giggle)!!

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      Mickie
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      I am very much in the same place as many of you. Because I have just started to accept me more and more, even though I have been a cross dresser for many years, I feel like I am starting anew. My wife is trying hard to let me express myself as I dress up every day now. Getting out in the world is my goal. I have pictured the place I would like to go and how it will feel to get out the car and walk through the parking lot with all to see and how amazing it will feel to be me. I have so many other firsts as I explore being a women with new cloths, make up, shoes, reading stories, and my art work. I love this forum and being called a girl, hearing my new name.

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      Heather Wannabe
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      I’m a closeted crossdresser who does not get to express my feminine self nearly as much as I’d like and not nearly enough.

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      Stephaniewy
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      I guess as I sit here in sexy womens undergarments, pantyhose, skirt, floral blouse, nice bustline, cherry red toenails, and pierced ears I pretty much have to accept the facts….I am a crossdresser.

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        Michaela Anthony
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        Hi Stephanie, your outfit sounds lovely and I’d definitely say you’ve arrived!

        Hope your ears are doing fine, I’ve just passed 6 weeks post pierce with mine and they’re doing great! ❤️

        *** Kayla ***

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          Stephaniewy
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          Hi Michaela,  thank you for the nice words, small steps but definitely moving forward.  Ears are going great ty for asking.  They are just a nice reminder.  Glad yours are doing great as well

          stephanie

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      Deborah Sullivan
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      It is important to just acknowledge that we are crossdressers and there is no harm or guilt or shame to it. We experience both sides of life and find it a blessing

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      Michaela Anthony
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      Indeed Cece, gaining self-acceptance is the first step in breaking that vicious guilt/shame/purge cycle that haunted so many of us throughout our lives. My own acceptance arrived after a number of life circumstances came together and pushed me into a great moment of retrospection then determination to live a life true to my nature. Courage quickly followed that allowed me to come out to my SO and then begin to do the things that truly set the femme part of my being free. So yes, I do accept the label of crossdresser now but really it’s all so much more than just the dressing that has made me the whole person I feel I’ve finally become.

      *** Kayla ***

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    • #644728
      Michelle McQueen
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      I’m a crossdresser because I wear something feminine every day. I’ve known I was a crossdresser even before I heard or knew what a crossdresser was.

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      Marti
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      Lots to agree with Cece,

      It never hurts to remember how much coming to CDH has helped not just me and you but most girls I hope.

      I see it all as another journey, but this one I don’t know quite where it will end up. But touch wood, not wanting to tempt fate, I’m much more comfortable with myself. Don’t get me wrong, there’s lots of unresolved ‘what about’s, but I’m not beating myself up. It’s who I am.

      Marti xxx

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    • #644714
      Michelle Davis
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      Hi Cece,

      I have always from a very young age known I was a crossdresser.  I  have always been ashamed and guilty about it as well.  Now at 75 years of age I realize that this is just who I am and I shouldn’t feel guilty about it.  It is as much part of me as my brown eyes and it doesn’t make me a bad person or a freak.  With this new view of myself, I am now starting to get the courage to do things I always wanted to do in the past.  These include my first professional transformation and a breast form and bra fitting.  Next up is going out in femme mode.  My wife is not ok with that at this point so it is still in the goal stage.

      Hugs,

      Michelle

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      Natasha Inaskirt
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      Well put, I too feel I am a crossdresser whatever I am wearing. Equally happy in drab, but unless I slip some nylons and a skirt on every week or two I get completely dressed by the need to be en femme.

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