I posted this recently on a different website that is a bit more focused on transgenderism then crossdressing and received a fair amount of support. But, being that CDH is by far the best website out there for girls like us, I decided that maybe I should share here as well and see what thoughts could be offered to me as my deepest thoughts, ideas, urges and desires grow stronger.
<p style=”box-sizing: border-box; margin-top: 0px; color: #272a34; font-family: ‘Helvetica Neue’, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;”>I have long considered myself simply as a crossdresser, I love the feel of being dressed in woman’s clothing and it makes me feel ‘right’ to be dressed up. Over the years, I never put a lot of major thought into anything more then this and never considered myself to be interested in going further with this lifestyle. However, recently, I have been more obsessed with the idea of actually being a legitimate woman and have started to wonder if the concept of transitioning would be something that I would want to do. However, I do have some hesitations due to my sexual history.</p>
<p style=”box-sizing: border-box; margin-bottom: 0px; color: #272a34; font-family: ‘Helvetica Neue’, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;”>I have always enjoyed sex, I am bisexual and relationships with both men and woman have been a part of my life since I was about 17 and first lost my virginity. I have been with more woman then men, because overall, I do not find an extreme enough attraction towards men that would make me desire a relationship with them. I guess my question is, is it possible for a MtF transgendered person to get some actual enjoyment from sexual experiences as a man? I have read a few pages via google searches that imply that even from a young age, most transgendered woman feel, for lack of a better term, wrong about using their penis, and although they might have sexual relationships, in some cases because they feel that it is what is expected of them, they don’t truly enjoy intercourse this way. Is this a solid truth? While I have typically enjoyed the physical feeling of sex and have spent plenty of alone time over the years since I was young, going solo, I’m not sure if this disqualifies me from potentially being a legitimate transgender. This is the main thing that has kept me from ever exploring the concept further, but as I get older and my feelings mature more and I desire to be a woman more, I feel it’s proper time to finally figure out if this is a factor that should keep me from taking the next steps or if I should explore and search my innermost feelings more towards this potential life changing outcome.</p>
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