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So I told my fiancé of 10 years that I’m a crossdresser last night.
We had been out shopping for panties and some loungewear/sleepwear and I was on a bit of a euphoric high because I had got my first ever VS panties and some she had let me get some women’s loungewear and a cute little athletic tank top also. I was totally in girl mode and cleaning house and helping her do things around the house. I had made mention of girl mode to her a few times over the evening trying to get her to ask about it in an effort to start the conversation about my crossdressing as I have been trying to tell her for some time now.
Well she took the bait and said to me what’s this girl mode thing? I asked her if she would like to know more about the feminine side of me? She of course said yes.
I began by telling her how much I loved her and wanted to be with her and only her for the rest of my life. Then I just let out my big secret. ( one of the hardest things I’ve ever done). She had all the usual questions starting with the one everyone gets the first, are you guys? Followed by do you want to live as a woman? I assumed her that neither of those were the case. I so assumed her that she was the only one who knows and she assured me that she wouldn’t tell anyone.
She then began to ask questions about how long i had been doing it, how it got started, to what degree did I like to go with it ( did I like wearing just lingerie or did I like to dress fully as a woman heels and the whole nine yards )? I told her all the way and she said I just don’t understand why you would want to do that. I told her that I didn’t quite understand it either and that it had taken me a long time to come to terms with the fact it was a part of me that wouldn’t go away. I told her of all the times I had tried to stop and how the urge to dress had come back stronger with each time. I also told her that I now realized that it brought balance into my life and that it helped me to better understand her and her feelings and that it was also bringing me closer to her in ways due to the greater understanding of the plight of women. I told her that I wouldn’t dress in front of her unless she wanted me to.
Throughout the conversation she kept going back to a come of things. One was asking if I was gas and each time I had the same reply which was no because I’m not. The other thing was she just didn’t understand all of it. She said she couldn’t understand how dressing would help me to understand her better or how it would be relaxing to me. She said some women’s clothes are not relaxing to wear. I agreed that some aren’t very comfortable but they are still relaxing to me.
Let me talk about my masculine self for just a second. I’m a manly man. Kinda rough, I like traditionally manly things, I participate in manly activities. I have always been in touch with my feminine side though. I’m pretty soft hearted and get my feelings hurt pretty easily not that those are feminine traits but they’re not necessarily masculine traits either. I guess at the end of the day I don’t quite understand myself either.
My fiancé said you’re such a manly man. I never would have expected this from you. She said don’t you feel silly all dressed up. You can’t feel pretty because you’re not a girl. I told her I knew I wasn’t pretty but I do feel pretty when I’m dressed.
All in all the conversation went better than I had expected or planned though not quite as well as I was hoping for. I feel she is left confused and questioning a lot of things. I told her I knew it was a lot to digest and that she would need time to process what I had told her. She agreed. I apologized for not telling her sooner and let her know that I only wanted her in my life and that I wasn’t trying to hurt her or push her away. She thanked me for telling her the truth and told me she wished I would have done sooner but she was grateful that I did tell her as she suspected something was up.
Iam now left with a little remorse over telling but I couldn’t keep it from her any longer. I kinda wish I hadn’t told her but kinda glad I did also. I guess we’ll just have to wait and see what happens. My biggest fear in this is that she will leave me and I certainly don’t want that to happen.
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