Why the struggle?

[Samantha Mann]

Today is the first time that I’ve ever been labeled as being a “sissy”? I was walking into work and another individual heard me talking on the phone in my femmine voice and walking in my walk. I looked at him smiled and came into the office. Went to bathroom and looked in the mirrior an Samantha looked back and said “you’re a beautiful woman amd dont listen to his ignorance”. These male clothes arent working and I’m ready to be who I’m supposed to be amd that is Samantha.

[Fiona-Ann Moss]

hi Samantha. people can be very ignorant cant they? its just peoples lack of understanding and knowledge that drives them into making hurtful comments. its the old chestnut of people finding it easier to disrespect someone than taking the time to ask and understand why you do what you do. unfortunately Samantha, the world is full of Neanderthals like that…….

fiona xxx

[Samantha Mann]

Thank you for those kind words Fiona. While I haven’t fully come out to anyone at work it hurts to hear comments like that. I’m not a sissy, I am a woman that is in a male body. I want to be free and I want to be the woman I was supposed to be.

[Becka]

Hi Samantha,

I’ll start by saying, I should follow my own advice.   But I understand circumstances, and I need to have the job I have right now!  🙂

This kind of gets to what I mean when I say you “have to come to terms with yourself”.  I my quiet little “progressive yet conservative” (and in a little bubble) of a town, I’m already a standout when dressed in my “male” clothes.  I don’t prescribe to the “polo short, athletic clothing, everything matching and everyone looking like everyone else”, dress code around here.  (That goes for males and females!).

So when I’m out in my hybrid mode on weekends, in my femme skinny down to the ankle jeans, wearing my very femme loafers with the little nylon booties, I get all sorts of looks, and I’m sure there are plenty of under the breath comments that are spoken.

Full “transparency” (hahaha, just realized the inadvertent play on words there!), I am at times uncomfortable, and find myself moving through stores or what have you quickly.  More and more however, I’m out there in the open for everyone to see.  They like it or not, and I really don’t give a damn.  I just hope someday I don’t have to (physically) defend myself against some Neanderthal.  Unfortunately I am somewhat prepared for that.

So bottom line is, you go with what makes you feel good, and screw the rest!

Hugs and kisses,

R.

[Mandy Cross]

Samantha, I for one envy your confidence and commitment in being who you want to be. You go girl and to hell with people who can only be negative like that. Mx

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