As a closet crossdresser of many years, the opportunity to dress is not always available. The need for time alone with no disturbance is precious. Rarely get opportunity of more than a few hours these days so when chance of getting a few days alone at home arose I was so excited.
I started purchasing a few items in preparation online over preceding weeks. I ordered a corset for first time and several pairs of tights and stockings as well as a couple of dresses and some underwear.
The feeling of anticipation when arriving home knowing the house would be empty for three days and being the weekend was intoxicating.
Being late November, I could close all the curtains without any attention being drawn. I gathered up all my items and laid them out ready to go. It was so nice seeing all your normally hidden items visibly out on display. I bathed and shaved my face and legs. I rarely shave legs but with it being Winter, it wasn’t an issue.
I don’t normally paint toenails, however, I now have the time to apply the polish. I had such a feminine feeling sitting and applying the polish on my toenails and then looking down at my toes. Next was my favorite bit of whole experience. Putting on a pair of tights/pantyhose. A feeling like no other I never tire of. For tonight I have 15 denier light grey. I love seeing painted toes though nylons. Especially mine!
Next I put on my corset and pulled it tight. So snug and feminine feeling again. It was my very first time wearing one and it certainly holds you in place. I then slip on a bra with false breasts and am ready for makeup.
Not very good with makeup as limited to time and products I have. Still feeling great sitting and applying it. Trying false lashes for first time. Struggle a bit as shaking with excitement a bit as enjoying the night so much. After makeup it’s time to put my wig on. Have a shoulder length wavy fair haired one for tonight. Do my best to style it and spray some hairspray to hold it. Love the smell which adds to the atmosphere.
I stand back and see results in the mirror. Only when I put wig on do I see how well the make-up looks and tonight quite pleased with it.
I spray on some perfume and sit with a cigarette enjoying the sensation. Oddly I never smoke but when dressed like this I have a desire to. It.could be from my early years watching my mother and aunt get ready. Always the smell of cigarettes and perfume bring back memories. I start applying my false nails while sitting. I love how ladylike my hands become. Sometimes I paint my own nails but enjoy the look of longer nails better.
I start getting dressed by putting on a navy blue flowing pattern dress with 3″ navy blue suede heels. Another feeling I love is sliding nylon feet into shoes.
I then clip on some earrings and put on a necklace along with few rings and a bracelet.
The feeling of contentment is overwhelming and liberating. The knowledge that not constantly having to check the time to get cleared up is wonderful. Looking down and seeing your legs in nylon with your feet in heels gives one an incredible feeling as well. The feeling of nylon on your legs as you move around is sexy. Looking at your hands and seeing long nails feels so feminine as well. Looking in the mirror and seeing a woman looking back at you is a real rush. I’m trying to decide what to try on next. Getting undressed for bed and putting on a nightie and tights to sleep in knowing I can do it all again tomorrow is wonderful too.
I can’t work out my reason of why I dress, but at this moment, I don’t really care as am totally immersed and happy.
* Do you girls experience these same feelings when you rare chance to dress comes up?
* Do you girls who dress regularly and openly still experience these feelings?
* How often is it that you get a chance to get your total girl on?
Thank you girls for taking the time to read my article. Feel free to give a response to either my article or one or more of the questions posed to you above.
Sincerely, Jane
Jane MacLeod
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To respond to the very well written article; Yes, I feel the feelings you felt, Every time I dress. I am 75 in October, and dressing since 6-9 yo. Sometimes I dress couple days in a row, sometimes 3-5 times a month.
There are millions of Us at there! I hear from Us from many countries weekly. Many folks must think they might be " the only ones who do this!" If they only knew the rest of us are out here , available to talk, interact. CDH provides those opening cracks in the shell…come on Out!!
Dr.T.J.
Fantastic Article Jane. Yes, Even after a long day and the kids have just gone to bed, I find despite how tired or grumpy I am I am energised being dressed as Sarah. I now enjoy going to my wardrobe each night and thinking about what I am going to wear, trying different outfits with each wig and then settling on the one I want for that evening.. For a couple of hours each night I am Sarah. (everything but makeup ) I have yet to dabble in makeup, I need to get approval from the wife but I am… Read more »
Hi Jane you describe so very well the feelings I have every time I get a chance to be dressed and enjoy my Gail time. Especially when you know there is a few days in a row that you can savour and stretch out doing things like your nails and makeup. Even something as simple as sitting on the couch reading takes on a whole new feeling when you look down and see the breasts under your blouse and feel the hair falling across your face.
Enjoy every moment
Love as always
Gail
Thanks for your reply. Interesting to hear all the responses to the article.
I really loved that article and felt every word. I understand how that feels to not have anyone’s expectations. Indulge into the other 1/2 of my make up as a human. Femininity. Fortunately at this time I live by myself so I embrace every part of me fully.
Jane,
Absolutely love your article. I like you have been in the closet forever. I only dress when I have the whole night to myself. Your descriptions of all the steps you take from shaving your legs to finally putting on a dress and looking in the mirror and seeing a beautiful woman is exactly how I feel. I too don’t care why I do it since I just enjoy it so much.
Hugs,
Irene
Yes, there are some key stages in dressing, even if time and circumstabces limit the opportunities. Among them I would pick out putting on the bra and adjusting its straps; hooking my (deep) suspender belt around me or zipping up my girdle; attaching my stockings…and, if necessary, checking and adjusting the seams; slipping nyloned feet into shoes (especially shoes with a heel and a strap); sitting down and seeing nylon-clad knees peeking out from a skirt or dress. Rarely, when time permits, there’s further pleasure in deciding to change one or more elements – different bra, tights instead of stockings,… Read more »
Oh girl i can easily relate to your story and life. I’m also closeted and only dress up in secret ( wife is ok with panties but nothing more ) For years I could dress up in my office several times a week but only for a limited time. This being the case I focused more on the clothes and what I wore underneath than dealing with makeup, nails or even a wig. I’ve only ever been completely dressed and fully made up a handful of times. When I sold my office property I had to downsize my collection of… Read more »
Being able to spread dressing over more than one day is, for me, very rare indeed but to wake up on day 2 to see yesterday’s clothes hanging on the bedroom chair is a special occasion! Realising that, in a few minutes, you will be putting on the bra, girdle, maybe the slip, some fresh stockings and panties…and then probably the same dress or skirt is, it seems to me, an opportunity to get some idea of what it would have been like to wake up as a woman.
I have always had a different take on topics like these.
When I’m getting into Caty mode, I am not “dressing up". I am “getting dressed". Just as a cis woman would do as she gets ready for her day. Starting with her lingerie and going on from there.
The obvious exceptions are adding the “false bits" such as breast forms and a wig.
But with everything else, right down to the make up and jewellery, I am “getting dressed".
CAty.